Vicki, ♥

It so hard to say goodbye.

2012-03-02T18:36:00.000+08:00

Met ohnmar at yck area, cabbed down to airport. Sent her off with FL & her cousins. She'll be coming back only in may ): Sad, can't bully her for like 2 months. Anyway, I'm pretty happy today. Because it was a great trip back with FL. Had tons of things to laugh and talk about. Especially when we stopped by at expo, to take a look at the new shopping centre "Changi City Point". Quite nice, many factory outlets. Remind me of the malaysia premium outlets. hahaha. I think it's much better than that!! LOL. Nothing much to blog today. Going to watch a show at RWS. Blog again soon yeah! (:

Enjoy the picturessssss, :D

why do i keep thinking about you. You're not even mine. I don't feel like letting go, coz i miss you so much. I want to be with you ): But it won't happen, i know. It will never happen. NEVER. Don't say that I never give you the chance. Is you never cherish the opportunity you had. What do you take me as seriously?! Someone you fucking toy with?!?!?!?! Then why not I toy with your feelings as well ?! :) Are you fucking happy about it? NO RIGHT? Then why do you fucking toy with my feelings. I have feelings too. Just cause you like it, then you toy with people feelings issit.

Damn.

Sentosaaaaaaa.

2012-03-01T12:59:00.000+08:00

Met up with my girls on Tuesday. Had a great day together. Went to clarke quay for lunch @ Saizeriya. After which we headed to Settler's cafe to play board games. Super enjoyable! Had so much laughter, and the whole cafe was like plain noisy!!

While waiting for Mel, we decided to snap photos. Taken by FL. Super like the effect! CHIO(:

This pretty picture was taken outside Central. super chio, I like! ^_^

On the way to sentosa. We did lots of walking!! *Thumbs up* :D

SENTOSAAAAAA !!!

Taken with this cute mascot outside USS. Cute shiittttt.

I super love this toy, it's so cute I swearrrr !!

I love the M&M. See the face, hahahaha!!! ^^

Chio right this photo. The hat is superrrrr cute!! :P

LION + FISH? HAHAHA!!!

COOOOOOOOOL :D

Came across this super pretty heart shape at palawan beach. Stopped to take a photo. Pretty man! (:

Love this photo very very much. Credits to PHYO(:

The wind was pretty strong that day, look at our hair. And the bridge is damn freaky scary I tell you. Shaking like nobody's business!!

Last photo, before going for dinner at St James. Had such a wonderful day with them. :)

My favourite letter, J.

2012-02-19T21:10:00.000+08:00

Hey there!

I'm blogging today, because I'm extremely happy. You know what? My attachment is going to end in another 4 days! Of coz I've to be happy right?!?!? Have been waiting for this day for so so so long. Finally, it's here! (:

As you can see from my title, J's my favourite letter. Yes, it really is. It has been my favourite letter for a really really long time already. Been talking to J lately, miss him pretty much. Haven't been really enjoying life lately, sucks.

I love him really really really much, like super much! Whenever I talk to J, I'll feel very happy, contented, satisfied. It's just so amazing. I admit, I like it when he's just so fucking sweet. But, love has two sides. We have the sweet side, and of coz the times where we will quarrel too. It's just how we're going to settle it.

He just makes my whole life complete. Without him, I don't know what I'm going to do. I'm just so addicted to him. I can't live without him. I just want to see his smile, hear his voice, cuddle in his arms. That's all, so simple. I don't want anyone else, except him.

I love him extremely much. So much more than you can ever imagine.

I like that we always fight over the smallest little things, cause I know you bother. If you don't even care about me, you wouldn't even bother about it so much. I like when you always piss me off, just to pacify me after that, because it shows you care. I like when you always disturb me, because I can feel the love. I like it when you bother to text me "good morning", because you think of me in the morning when you get up. I like those small little stuffs that you do, that surprises me. I love you, because you're you.

I need you, because you're like the pill when I'm ill. You're like the chewing gum that sticks to the floor. I don't ever want to let you go. I don't want any other girl to have you. I want to marry to you. I want to grow old with you. I want to be your lawfully wife. I want you to lead me.

I love you, lil J.

Time waits for no man.

2012-02-09T18:52:00.000+08:00

Hi there.

My blog has recently been quite boring yea? I know. It's because I've been working day in day out everyday. Haven't really been able to enjoy life much ever since CNY ended. Work has been so tiring for me. Everyday there's like endless work to do. Almost on the verge of breaking down. But I'm glad that I have great partners next to me. At least I don't feel so lost at work, so bored at workplace. It totally brightens up my day.

If you realize, today is already the beginning of Feb 2012. How time flies so fast right? I'll be on vacation in a week or two, i'm excited! Will be on a two months vacation, can you imagine how excited I am? YEA MAN!! Will be working for the next 2 days, followed by off on sunday. Hope I'll be able to meet ohnmar, hehe. Then working for another 5 days, before getting my offs on sat and sunday. imma happy girl! (:

I'm a very contented girl this year, because I have such great friends that make me smile. They're there no matter what happens. Of coz not forgetting my family right? Anw, all I want to say is that real friends will stand by you no matter what happens, even when the going gets tough. I'm proud to say that I do have friends that are like that. I bet you know who you are! :) It takes two hands to clap. You can't possibly simply rely on someone to keep initiating, and you just keep waiting. It doesn't work that way.

I think that I'm beginning to become more matured day by day, maybe because I'm getting older? Shucks. I hate this seriously! I dislike to know that I'm growing older and older. But on the other hand, I'm excited to build my own family. I will want to provide the best for my kids. Nothing else, but the BEST. I will not pamper them too much, because it's very bad for them. Must make them learn the hard way right. That's the best.

Totally agree with what the picture says. Distance doesn't ruin relationships, doubts do. If you have so much trust in your partner, yr relationship will be fine. But if you keep doubting him/her day by day, one day it will just not work out. That's why, trust is the most important thing to maintain a relationship.

When there's no trust, there's no love.

I'm thankful to have such a wonderful bunch of friends who are always there for me. It's really touching to have friends that care for you. When you know someone is always on the lookout for you, when you are sad & down, it's so comforting. Really really really thankful for all that. I appreciate it so so so so much.

I won't be able to make everyone like me, that's for sure. I will bound to have haters, it's just that whether I even bother about them. Why care about people that hate you, and waste your time thinking about those people? I would rather spend my time loving those people that love me just as much. Life is too short to spend it hating and hating. It is just too short. We shouldn't spend our time thinking about those nonsense, instead grab the opportunity to do something that is more fruitful. Don't wait till you miss the chance, before you regret. By then it would have been too late.

Time waits for no man.

Always strive to achieve the best that you can be. You never know when you will die tomorrow. Therefore, we should always seize any opportunity to fulfill all your wishes. I don't want to die with any regrets, even if it is telling you how much you mean to me. Even if we can't be together, at least I know I've tried my best.

I'm going to make 2012 a more fruitful year than ever. It's gonna be my 21st! So excited about it. Just thinking about it makes my heart beat so much faster.

2012-02-07T21:58:00.000+08:00

I'm going to finish my prcp soon! Looking forward to that day, because I'll be able to go back to school, meet all my pretty girls and have a blast!! So EXCITED! Anyway, I have only 16 more days left in the ward, before I graduate and work as a SN! stress shittttt. Thinking of going away for a short holiday during my 2 months break, but I have hardly any idea where to go. damnn. maybe I should go to perth and see my lil cousin? But it's like quite inconvenient though!! Sucks ): Don't know where to go!! I'm so bored of singapore, damnnnnnit :(((((

HELLO FEBRUARY!

2012-02-01T23:57:00.000+08:00

It's already FEBRUARY, guys! Which means, soon it'll be Valentine's day! Not really looking forward to that day, since I've no valentine. Maybe gonna spend it at work? ): Pretty sad. Anyway, happy to announce that I've officially finished my night duty for the term! So happy because I'm gonna have like 2 days off ? Before I get back to work, hehehe. Can party like madness! (: Met FL & Mel this evening for dinner @ Dhoby. Haven't met them in like ages! Had so much things to talk about, hahaha. HILARIOUS. I was still telling FL that her bank leaks money, since she rarely has money inside. Meeting my baby zoe tml, so excited!! They are flying back to aus this weekend. Sad!! ): It's already close to 2 months that they are here, I guess? Hope I'll be able to send them off !! :D

February is gonna be a good month for me! Need to be a good girl. Be more positive!!!!! YESSSS :D Learn to accept myself for who I am. Keep working hard! That's my aim for this month! And partyyyyyyyyyyyyy (:

Miss you so fucking much. But I don't want to rely too much on you. After all, we have no commitments :) You can be my one and only, but i'm not. I don't want to regret one day, when I finally give up and move on, when you turn around and tell me that you like me. I wish it'd not be too late to tell someone you like him/her. I need to be braver, to tell you that I like you. BUT, what's stopping me? Haiz.

It's already close to 12mn, time to sleep! Goodnights!! (:

GONG HEI FAT CHOI !

2012-01-27T12:04:00.000+08:00

So, how was your CNY? Mine was great! :D Collected lots and lots of ang pao. Even went to BH's house to gamble. That's the best part. Played blackjack, and finally I flipped the table. Lost only $1, heng bodoh. =D Anyway, today I'm off. Yesterday went to BH's house to see my lil zoe. She's so cute! I want a baby like her :( So.....after tml, i'm gonna have to work night soon. for 3 days. That'll be my last night for prcp, shiok. cannot wait for it to end!!!! (: don't know what to do today, so bored. Should I go out... hmmmmz. bored of staying at home, everyday. Getting so sick and tired of the 4 walls in the house!! :( I need some PARTTYYYYYY (: HEHEHEHE. shall go and find something to do. Thinking of heading to BH's house to play with zoe again, since they'll be heading back to aus soon. Gonna miss them freaking much :( I'll miss zoe even more y'know! She's so cuteeeee. I CANNOT TAKE IT!!!!!!!! ARGHHH.

Ok, I love CNY coz of ANGPAOS! :D hahahha.

missyoufuckingmuch.

L for LOVE.

2012-01-14T11:21:00.000+08:00

Met up with my lovelies yesterday. Melissa was there as well, but she had to leave early. That's sad. So, left ohnmar, fl and myself! We walked to far east to do some shopping! And ohnmar bought her bag which she liked so much since that day we went there. Hahah, super funny. After walking the entire FEP, we decided to sit down and take photos. We're so lucky to find a seat outside the KFC. Super lucky okay!!!!!!! :D So, snap snap snap. On and on~ The photos goes. HAHAHAH (: After snapping lots and lots and lots of photos, we left for ION. So we went to ION, and found another place to sit! AND AS USUAL, our habit goes! SNAP SNAP SNAP :D It was real windy there, super nice. You can like, totally sleep there? (: And this fl, totally made our day. Her pronounciation of DOG was fucking hilarious! HAHAHAHA. Like wtfffffffffffffffff. Anyway, I miss them so damn damn damn much. So happy that they are still available to meet me! Kind of heartwarming though! Me like! ^_^

I hope we will continue to be good friends, who can go out together, hehehe!! BFF! :D

The pictures are as follows. Enjoy! :)

P.S: i miss you fucking much.

LG !

2012-01-11T22:41:00.000+08:00

Hello, work has been great so far. Still having 4 more days of work, before I get my next 2 weeks of schedule. Hope I'll be off on CNY. Since I wasn't off on like christmas? ): Anyway, life has been pretty good so far. Will be meeting my girls in a few days time. Kind of excited though. I can't wait to meet them, and start our gossip sessions! Hahaha! It'll be like so fun, and exciting! Starting to see things from a different perspective. Good that I can take it in my stride :) I'm quite sleepy today, don't know why. Kept dozing off in the train, like crap la. Embarassing shit !!

True love

2012-01-10T20:24:00.002+08:00

This is true love. Period.

My deep down thoughts

2012-01-10T11:01:00.001+08:00

You know what? I learnt to be stronger. I hate people typing flirtishly to you, I admit. But what to do? Maybe u like it that way right. I don't want to look like someone who gets so bothered over these little stuffs. I only can say that, if I meant a lot to you, you would show it. But if I don't mean anything to you, then too bad. It's just my luck. It's not my faulty for losing you, but it's your fault for losing a girl that likes you so much. So much more than you can ever imagine. You should jolly well know that a girl hates it when another woman talks like this to you. Who doesn't right or not? You wouldn't like it either! So why do that to someone who loves you so fucking much. Is this how you treat the person? Sometimes all I do, is sit down and think about the stuffs you do. Maybe you are really busy. Or maybe you just don't wish to reply. I try to make myself not think about those negative stuff, but your actions just totally do so. So, tell me what should I do? I'm not as strong as what you perceive me to be. I'm not as cool as what's you thought I am to be. I'm not a flirt. But one thing I can tell you, when I devote myself to the person, I wish he'd do the same too. You get my point? It's just so simple. Devoting yourself to a girl, and not caring about others. Is it so difficult to do so? I don't think so right. I hope you get my point. And I'm fucking serious. I hate that comment that she wrote. Like wtf. Unless you tell me you are in a r/s with her. Then I wouldn't say anything. Up to you la. I don't bother. I don't care. Don't wish to CARE.

whatever you want.

2012-01-09T19:41:00.000+08:00

Oh yes, currently having my off. Which I'm like so damn happy. Because I was working 3 nights for the pass few days. Fucking tired, I swear. Come home, jitao want sleep already. Wake up, like shag only. Met mel today, acc her to go to school to submit her MC. then sat at koufu, and have h2h talk. Had a great time talking with her. Long time never do that le.

Been thinking much these days, why should I care so much when you don't even bother. Why do I have to bring myself through this pain. Do I deserve all this? Maybe you don't even care right? If I was important in your life, you wouldn't be treating me like that. why? -.- Maybe its because I MEAN NOTHING TO YOU (:

I agree that you will find a girl better than me. But I don't want to think that way, haiz. If only you understand how i feel uh. ): Don't know why I don't have that much confidence, maybe it's because.....HAIIIII :( we need 2 hands to clap, just like how you need 2 people to maintain a relationship. Do you really not know, or you choose to pretend not to know. I think it's like fucking obvious!!! Maybe you choose to pretend coz you don't like? :) That's all I can think of.

Gonna continue watching my woojung couple. Fucking nice, I swear.

I love you, lil hunny.

2012-01-03T19:43:00.000+08:00

I'm like so angry with myself right now. Why did I have to delay watching that show, now I can't even find it online! And nobody wants to watch it in cinemas! That's even worse right! Super annoyed y'know. Oh yes, did I mention about my 1 day work only? I had this super long holiday, for like 4 days? And then I went back to work for only 1 day, just to realize that I'm having another off for 2 days, before my night shift officially starts. FML OKAY. I'm like so so so so tiredddddd. Me wanna sleeeeeeep ):

Anw, work has been great so far. So far so good :D I kind of like working in that ward, it makes me feel satisfied. Especially when my patients thank me when they go home. It's a sense of satisfaction, you see. I'm quite happy with myself. Just hope that my night will be a great one, no bad things happen!! PRAYYYY. After night, I will have another 3 days of off. Shiok right? (:

2012 has been great so far. Today's the 3rd of jan already. Time is passing real fast. My friends has been saying, once you reach 20 years old, the time will pass very quickly. Now, I'm starting to believe that. It's not that we are getting old, it's because there's too much things to do. Like work, relationships, etc etc. Super packed like mad shit.

Been telling myself not to devote too much. The more you love, the more heartbreaking it will be later on. You should know it, Vicki. Sometimes, I question myself as to why I have to devote myself to you. Why is it you? I also don't know why. For me, love has no reason. It's like, fate. When I'm with you, I feel this sense of security, like you are protecting me. I feel that you will be by my side no matter what happens. I wish that miracles happen.

I wish upon a star. I'm not perfect, but I can strive to be a perfectionist. I'm not good at sweet talks, but I try my best. What's most importantly is that we keep trying. Relationships fail, because either party is not willing to try anymore, or has already given up. That's why, we should work hard to maintain it (:

P.S Y'know, I love you so much more than you can ever imagine.

Last day of the year

2011-12-31T21:42:00.000+08:00

It's the last day of the year ! HOW AWESOME RIGHT ?! Time has passed so quickly, like REALLY quick. Tomorrow will be the start of a brand new year. Since it's a new year, I should have new resolutions right? (:

To graduate and work as a full fledged nurse.
To be a filial daughter. (haven't been one pretty much): )
To spend valentine's day with you.
To advance my studies, be it in advance dip/degree.
To treasure my awesome bunch of friends !! <3

It's nothing much, but I hope to achieve them by next year! For now, I need to concentrate on my intern first. Need to do well for it, and maybe next time when I start working, I will have to impress my supervisor. So that I will have a better chance of pursuing my studies! Yup! This is my resolution for next year. I hope that everyone around me will be healthy, and prosper!

2011 has been a great year for me. I learnt many things from many different people. It has made me a stronger person, and I'm sure that I'll be able to be even better in 2012. I hope that everyone has enjoyed 2011 pretty much. As we move on to 2012, let's all look forward and not look back. Let bygones be bygones. We should look forward, and achieve our goals. In this way, will we be able to succeed!

Most importantly, in 2011, I got to know such a wonderful person like you. You really changed my life so much. I used to think that love is not a fairytale. There is no such thing as forever. Because, people change, and words change, everything won't be like before, so sweet. But, when I got to know you, talk to you, fall in love with you, it changed my perception of love. Love can be so plain. It doesn't need sweet talkings, it just need the right company to be with you at the right time. That's all it needs. Even when I'm down or upset, all I need is just a word from you, and it'll brighten up my day. It's even nicer when you praise me, how great. It feels like I'm the best in this world, although I'm not. I don't need someone who can sweet talk, I just need someone who can love me as much as I love him, that's all. That's how simple love can be :)

I wish I could celebrate new year with you, really. But I know, if it was to happen, we'll last a lifetime. I hope. I really really really can't help falling in love with you. 'Coz you are just too sweet. You're like the hunny that lil pooh needs. I hope that in 2012, sparks will fly (:

Ok, time to head out for countdown. I'm so frigging excited okay! (: WOOHOOOO.

Wishing all of you a HAPPY HAPPY NEW YEAR!! ENJOY 2012 ! :D

2011-12-29T23:03:00.000+08:00

Hello!

Just came back from aunty Nancy place. Had dinner there, with RENEE! We had popiah, macaroni and lots and lots of durian. Now I feel so damn full, feel like vomiting :( Anyway, I've finished my 8days of work. Now currently enjoying my 4 days of holiday. Must feel happy, because I get off until new year! :D So I'm quite satisfied la. Don't really feel well ever since I came back after eating the durian. Feel like having fever like that ): Hope nothing goes wrong. I don't want to fall sick. Everyone is starting to fall sick. I need to take good care of myself! We had lots and lots of great talks between us. Super exciting only. Meeting RENEE tomorrow, cannot wait :D Gossip like never ending only! (: Y'know, it's so nice to have a same aged cousin! It's like, we can talk about anything under the sun !

Was quite upset few days back. Luckily confided in my friend, haiz. Very upset, but what to do. This is life. Yup. I have to face it. Sometimes, I tell myself, not to show people my weak side. For what do I want people to think that I'm weak and always need someone around. Right or not? Even though I'm really tired of it, I don't want to show it to others, cause I don't want to make them upset. But sometimes, I really really wish you can put yourself in my shoes, and think from my point of view. Would you like it this way? There will always be someone better, prettier than me, but they will never be me. They will never be able to shower you with that unconditional love, the care. Don't wait until you lose the one that love you, then regret. By then, it'll be too late. Whatever you do, won't be able to turn time back.

He told me that you cared. But it doesn't seem like. I learnt a lot of things from him. I'm trying to understand you. I'm trying my best. Let fate decide? :(

Sometimes, I wish I was more important. But I know it'll not be. I just have to live with it, I guess? :)

Haiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii.

Maybe one day, you will understand where I am coming from. By then, I hope it won't be too late before you start regretting.

Sorry.

myoneandonly.

2011-12-26T16:24:00.000+08:00

It's christmas season! MERRY XMAS!! :D
Y'know, you're all I think about the entire day. I don't know why. I think I'm going crazy over you. I try my best to hold it back, but I can't. I feel like telling you, i miss you. :( It's nice to have a person to care for you, to love you. I also want. But, sometimes it depends on fate. If we are meant to be, we will be. Forever and ever. There is no such thing as fairytale, but I believe that if we work hard, we can achieve it. Maybe I'm the only one that's thinking that way. Maybe it's all my opinion only. I don't want to realize it too late, that you don't care. It's like I'm just your ordinary friend. All day night, I'm just waiting for you ): I think I'm mad okay.

I just want to be the one who is there for you when you need me. To be your listening ear. To be the one who share joy and sorrow with. To be the one that you can lean on. To be the one who loves you.

It's just so simple.

I wonder when can it happen. Waiting and waiting.

I try my best, but if you don't try, nothing will happen. Love doesn't just grow in few seconds. It takes a lot of effort to make it last. If you are willing to put in effort, you will see that it goes very far. I don't want to give up :) I will work hard to make you change heart :D

imissyouveryverymuch.

2011-12-17T19:57:00.000+08:00

Decided to change my blog to pink-ish. Super like it :D Anyway, this is my 2nd week of posting already. Have been enjoying the posting very much. The staff are very nice, pt's too. Love the ward. After my off on mon and tue, I have to work for 8DAYS before I have my next off ! :( Quite sad, but on the other hand, happy coz got 4 days off !! :D Must look forward to it uh!!!! :) It's like damn exciting please.
Ok, I hope I can catch the Already famous show this coming monday. (Y) I think michelle chong is like damn funny mannnn. (:
Talked to ohnmar past few days back, h2h. Was really happy that she spent time with me. Super depressed that day, don't know why. But, now I'm much better. Felt giddy and headache few days back, not sure why either. :( Hope that nothing is wrong yup! :D I kind of like going to work, cause there's like nice people, nice friends, super love! :DDD Friends make my day(:
Got to know many new friends, from nyp and np too! The np students are very nice! :D Talked to huiying, she's quite chatty. Then we like spend alot of time in the ward together (:
Did what ohnmar told me the tactic, and surprisingly, it works! :D
And now, my eyes is like fucking itchy. like seriously.
Nowadays, the SMRT is like quite unreliable. Almost breaking down everyday. That's pathetic! Hope that it'll be solved soon, so that there will be no problem! :D Although it doesn't really concern me :P LOLZ.

Ok, gtg! ;D

LOVEYOU(:

2011-12-14T21:33:00.000+08:00

Off today, met up with mel & ohnmar. Had lots of fun talking to them, and playing deal. Super fun meeting up with my girls, coz I miss them truckloads! :( On attachment, cannot really talk to them. Quite happy that they make time for me too :D Left for home around 6pm, as mel gotta meet her bf. Ohnmar headed home earlier coz she's working AM shift tml. Off tomorrow for me :) Shall rest at home, and maybe read up on my skills, etc.
Been thinking really much these days.. Like, are we on the right track? Or not? I don't know what's the feeling like. It's like weird, hmmz. I don't want to expect too much, coz if I expect too much, there will be disappointment, I know. Don't want to have no life. Somehow, whenever I can confide in someone, I will feel a sense of relief. Coz at least I know there's someone there to care for me, that I can talk to. Sometimes, too stress at work, need people to help me relieve stress ah. Just finished watching my running man ep 72. Super love yonghwaaaa. He damn handsome please! OMG :) Just thinking about offs make me happy, but thinking about going back to work is like SIANNNNN only. Do you think that if I keep talking to you, it's like very annoying? I don't know :( I don't want people to feel that I'm annoying. Hmmz. What to do? :( Tell me.
So sian, I shall stop here. Too bored, so I came to blog :x

P.S: imyvm.

LONELY.

2011-12-08T19:16:00.000+08:00

Today my tummy is being such a bitch, hurting so badly. So irritating y'know? Anyway, today's the first day that I've been to my PRCP ward. My preceptor like nice only you know! Hehehehe. Hope it'll be a fun journey, learning from her :D Tomorrow is morning shift, which is same as her. Need to start learning up the staff nurses role, as I will be passing out soon. Otherwise, I will not be able to graduate :(
Tml will be meeting my girls , happy you know. So long never see them! Like before I went korea? You know how much I miss them :((( If we're going to 313, then we can buy gongcha! MUAHAHAH ^_^
Actually, I don't really know what to blog leh. Like boring only.
I'm all alone at home today, mum is out, dad is away, sister is out. I'm all aloneeee :( SO SAD. I feel like sleeping, so that I won't feel so bored. Or can someone talk to me :( SOB.

Korea Trip.

2011-12-04T20:34:00.000+08:00

Hello!

I'm back from my korea trip since 1st Dec. It's been really really fun and exciting being there! Was a little disappointed because I wasn't able to meet my idols. But nonetheless, shopping made me happy. Like really happy! I managed to get myself a 2PM iphone cover!! SUPER NICE YOU KNOW! And it's like super cheap!!!!! :D Everyday eating rice, and rice and rice, and kimchi, and kimchi, and kimchi ! Eat until really sian you know :( Eat until scared of rice, that's how terrified i am of eating rice now. LOLZ.

Day1 - Depart to KOREA!
MY LOVEEEEEELANDDDD (: WHERE ALL MY HUSBANDS AREEEE :D MUAHAHAHAHA.

Day 2 - EVERLAND THEME PARK.
It was the first stop we went, after arriving at the airport. I swear, I was damn tired ok. I arrived at korea about 7am. Met up with the guide close to 8am. Boarded the tour bus, there were many other people there too. We were like the minority, coz only like 11 of us board that bus. So off we went to everland! Quite cool to get to go to a theme park, because I watch korean variety, it's like a place where I wanna go! So I was kind of excited to be able to go there! :D But didn't get to take any rides, cause the weather was like frigging cold, and nobody pei me play! :( That's more sad.

Day3 - SKIIIIIII !!
We went skii-ingggggg. IT WAS FABULOUSSSSSSSSS. The weather was like DAMN NICE OK!!! I REALLY REALLY LOVE KOREAAAAAAAAAAA. ME WANNA STAY THERE :(( Ski was fun, but scary cause it's like once you turn your ski board, immediately go down! and it's like super fast!! But very fun! :D I LIKEYYYY (:

Day 4 & 5 - JEJU ISLAND
We went to learn how to make kimchi, since we were at jeju. We also managed to take some pictures in those korean outfits! Like cool onlyy yoz. Our hotel at jeju was damn shiok, lotte hotel ! We caught a show "FANTA-STICK" before heading to the hotel. DAMN NICE I SWEAR. Damn funny, especially the curly hair guyyyy :D We also went to the glass castle, teddy bear museum & HORSE RIDING! Damn love the horse riding, but it kinda scared me when it galloped and ran! LIKE DAMN FAST. I ALMOST FLEW OFF THE HORSEEEE! >:( And my butt was frigging pain from all the bumps. But the second round it ran, it kind of slowed down, maybe cause i'm too heavy! MUAHAHAHA ^_^

Day 6 - Was supposed to go back to seoul, but weather permits :( STAYED IN JEJU TILL 8PM! :(
We had bimbimbap for lunch. and went to some amethyst shop. boring like shit. nothing to buy there. In the end, the kids settled for monopoly deal on the bus. Coolios! :D We had ginseng chicken soup for dinz ! Quite tasty & yummy! After dinz, we headed to the airport to catch our flight back!

Day 7 - Myungdong & LOTTE WORLD!
I damn love this day the most. Cause it's like the most memorable day ever!!!!!! :D Myungdong was frigging nice, because it's SHOPPING! I SUPER LOVE SHOPPING!! And the weather there is like BEST FOR SHOPPING! This is the place where I got myself my 2PM cover. I also bought SNSD file. Cool max ! We also had a make up session, quite cool. Bought masks because it's like damn cheap over at korea?!?!?!?!?!??!! LIKE DAMN DAMN CHEAP. I can buy like 3 sheets over there, for the price of 1 HERE! How cheap can it be right !?!??!?! =D Lotte world was the best ! Played many many many many rides with Jill & Jeremy. DAMN FUN!! There was the outdoor and indoor. Went to play outdoor first. Our first ride was the swing!! It was freezing okaaaay!!! And we spin like many many times, non stop!! :( Super coldddddd. After that, we went to sit another ride, scary much. It goes up and down, left and right o_o'' Followed by bumper cars! Fun shit, kenna bump here and there. Wanted to play the roller coaster, but super packed :( Settled for the mini space shot instead. My heart nearly flew out. It's like super scaryyyyyy. After that, we went indoor cause it was too cold, and there was not much time left. The french revo was damn fun I swear!! But my ears and face hurt like crazy from all those bumpz ! :( irritating much. I tell you, the ride which turns in a circle is damn scary!!!!!!!! I NEARLY FLEW OUT OF THE SEAT!! NOT A JOKE OK!!!!!!!!!! :( IT'S DAMN DAMN DAMN SCARYYYYYYYYYYYY. Spinning tea cups was fun! And fatboy joined us for bumper car. It was super fun, bumping him off the car. MUAHAHAHAHA ^_^ soon, it was time to head back to hotel. But we decided to have a party at our hotel room. PLAYING MONOPOLY DEALZ ! :D We played till around 1plus - 2 I guess? :o fun fun fun !

I had a greeeeeat time at korea, with the greaaaat company! If only we knew Jill they all earlier, then we would have even much more fun !!

Tomorrow, i'm starting intern. Hate to think of it, but it sucks! It's 3 months non stop, which makes me feel like it's 3 damn years. I know I'm not supposed to think of it this way, but who doesn't!?!?!? WHO LIKES INTERN PLEASE. Anyone in the right state of mind, wouldn't like it !! I would rather have my holidayssss!!!! >:( ANGRYANGRYANGRY!!!! Hope my 3 months will pass quickly, and get my 1 month of holiday, before my work officially starts. Not really looking forward to it though :( WHY WHY WHY.

Gambatteh Vicki !!! YOU CAN DO IT! (Y)

I hope I can celebrate christmas with youuu.

P.S : I love youuuuu (:

Suay ka lao sai.

2011-11-20T21:54:00.000+08:00

Went out with clique, to celebrate Jasper's birthday yesterday. Met Daryl & Guojian first at mountbatten, before heading to jasper's place. First time see GJ drive, haha! So we went up to his place, and saw Jeremy there. Soon after, Jasmine came. We prepared, while waiting to give a surprise to Jasper. So when he arrived, I think he was quite shocked to see us there! Hahaha. After that, Kendrick came. Then, GJ went down to get his car first. Suddenly, Daryl received a call from GJ saying that "somebody shang his car" which means in english, somebody get into his car. So we rushed down to see what happen. Got a shock, cause his whole front bumper was like lying on the ground, and the car logo even dropped out. Luckily those foreign workers there, saw what happened, then they were like explaining to GJ and stuff. Spent like nearly 3 hours there? Trying to settle the thing. So, our plans were delayed. We couldn't go ice skating, due to the time limit. After settling the thing, around 3 plus, we left for paintball. Headed to play paintball @ Bottle tree park. The weather wasn't really nice to us yesterday. It rained cats and dogs. Had to delay the game until about 5, I think? Finally, we started the game. Played for about 30 minutes I think. Then we went to wash up and get ready to leave for dinner. It was around 6:30 by the time we left yishun. Since they wanted to go home and wash up, everyone left for home, while I headed over to Daryl's place to wait for all of them to get ready. Took a really long time to meet for dinner! Super long, and hungry!! :( Headed to changi airport T2 for dinner. Dined at Seafood paradise, which costs a BOMB! Had our dinner only around 9:45PM! Super late I know! No choice! Super unhealthy to eat so late, very fattening you know! :( Left changi airport around 11pm. Managed to catch the last train home. Luckily. Headed home with a sleepy head. I had lots of fun, hehehee. Tml going to sing k with moi girls. Happiness only!~ :D Hehehehehe!!! ^_^ Cannot wait to meet my pretty ladies. I think the last time I met Hann was like 1-2 months ago! Damn long you know! :( Likeasad only.

Hoping that tomorrow will be a even better day! Gambatteh!~

Love.

2011-11-15T20:39:00.000+08:00

As you can see, I super love 2PM now. Haven't been blogging for days, because was rather busy. Had to get my structured activity things up. Therefore, didn't have much time. Met up with Raymond, Aashmit & Ronald on sunday. Caught TINTIN @ Grand Cathay. It's damn hilarious lah, totally couldn't stop laughing. Anyway, tml is gonna be my last day at AMKH already. Will miss my patients there, and of coz CI too. She taught me a lot of things, although she nags. I will really miss her teaching and guidance. I've never gotten such a nice CI that takes good care of me during my posting. Really thank her from the bottom of my heart. Everyone has flaws, it's how we learn to love each other's flaws that make us a better person. I try to show that I'm not pissed with you, but that doesn't mean that you can climb all over my head. I'm not here to serve you, neither am I your slave. We are here to work together to achieve something greater. I don't want to stick to you, neither do I want you to stick to me. We should all play our part, and work hard together. I don't want to help you do every single little thing, because I don't want you to stick to me. I don't like it when you do not do anything, but you just take all the credit. I totally dislike this kind of behaviour. It's like.. why are you even awarded this mark? did you even put in any effort? You didn't okay. You didn't even bother to try. Some people, don't work hard at all. Totally fail. HSE on thursday & friday. After which I'll be meeting my girls after a long month of not seeing each other. Miss them truckloads.

God, please empower me with the strength to carry on. I'm so tired of being sucked to do every damn thing. Really tired. Please help me.

I wish you were out of my life. TYVM(:

You are such a fucker, seriously.

Meetup with my darlings.

2011-11-10T17:26:00.000+08:00

Hello my friends.

Finally met up with my CFP darlings after a long time! Didn't meet them for about a year I guess? Yup, that's very long!!! Anyway, currently on intern though. Still manageable. This week is quite fast, because monday was a PH. And tml is already Friday. HAPPY :)

Case presentation also over already, can relax like finally! ^_^

Alright, let the pictures do the talking yup.

Oh yes, I watched 23:59 already. So-so only. Not really scary though. But more of funny. The mark lee like a joke only. hahahah.

Our first polaroid ever.

FAMILY(:

23:59 tickets! Pretty right! (:

Like this picture super much (:

Daniel's birthday celebration

2011-11-05T23:20:00.000+08:00

I've finished my 2 weeks of Geron posting already! Still have 2 more weeks to go. Excited about it, cause it'll be my holidays after that! Which means.... I'll be going to Korea! YAY :D So happy you know! I super can't wait to go to korea, ever since I've became a kpop fan. Not really those crazy fans, but I really really like 2PM & SHINee especially! Anyway, back to topic, today I went for Daniel's b'dae party celebration. He's my secondary school friend. Although we are not really close, but still happy that he invited me la! :) Like really appreciate it lo. It's his 21st, so wanna wish him A HAPPY 21st BIRTHDAY! :D It's like he'll not see this post, but still wish him is good. hehe. Met up with my secondary school friends after a really really long time! It's been like close to 6 months since I last saw them? When we went for Mel's b'dae party. I really enjoy celebrating my friends birthdays because I get to meet up with my close friends and we get to do some catching up! :) So I'm really really happy. After so long, we get to meet each other, get to talk, laugh, etc etc. It's like back in school days! Super miss those times in sec school. Was super touched during his celebration, especially during his mom's speech. Is like very gan dong that type :( Kinda lazy to post pictures here, because all are in facebook. Lazy to sync my iphone, and then slowly upload :x So I just bombed everything into facebook, haha! I know I'm very lazy ! But what to do, it's already 11:19pm , and I'm meeting my friends tomorrow at 12:30pm ! Gosh, me need to sleep soon!!!! :D

Goooodnights!

Karma

2011-10-31T20:09:00.000+08:00

Today started my 2nd week of posting. Horrendous day today, don't know whether I should call it lucky/suay. To me it's suay la, because get to meet this kind of person. It's like cannot be more suay than ever? So yeap, this is how it goes. If you're lazy to read on, you can just close it. Coz it's going to be more of a ranting post (: So, I've this client, let's call her Mdm A. So Mdm A was admitted, cause of some problems. So Mdm A has 2 dressings, and I was told to do it for her. So CI came with me, and we started doing. Then Mdm A kept niaming non stop. Saying that I'm so slow, so stupid, etc etc. Then CI was furious, so she told her off. "No one is born to be smart, everyone has to learn." Then Mdm A asked CI to do, but CI said "if you don't let her do, she will not learn." Then Mdm A said " you do better, you more experienced." So CI told her "Everyone has to learn before being able to be good in it." And she kept harping and harping non stop, seriously fucked up. Then CI did the pasting, then she gave so much trouble. I think we spent like 10+++ items on her 2 legs. And it's not cheap lor. Zzz. Totally fucked when you meet this kind of client. I know I'm not supposed to talk rot about her, but she seriously piss me off. Like, when you ask me to do this, I do for you. And she's fucking selfish. Other people fan, cannot be near her, cannot blow to her. Like wtf?! You think you staying in A class sibo? So much money, go stay in A lah. FUCK. Only know how to call people stupid, so you think you fucking smart? Fucking smart go do your own dressing la. Fucking smart, you won't end up here need people help you. You so fucking smart, you go be Dr la. Only know how to complain. People shouldn't be so critical. When you need people's help, you should learn to be nicer. Mind your P's and Q's. Don't always demand something instantly. If you want it instantly, why don't you go do it yourself? You think we only have 1 person to serve? ONLY YOU? Pathetic shit. I totally hate you to the fucking core. LIKE FUCKING SERIOUSLY. I hope karma hits you like damnit. After eating want people instantly brush for you teeth? Wtf, you do it yourself la zz. You think we so free issit. -.- LAME LA. Complain queen sia, only know how to kpkb only. zz.

BYE. TOO PISSED.

Cherish each other.

2011-10-29T17:59:00.002+08:00

I just came to realization that having 1 best friend is better than having many friends but no best friend at all. So what if you have so many friends, but can you count on them when you need them? But if you only have 1 best friend, at least you can count on him/her, when you need her right? Heard that one guy from kcp passed away. Not really sure of the reason behind though, just managed to catch a glimpse over some of my friends fb & twitter. Rest in peace yup. Do take care over in the other world. Whenever someone passes away, it reminds me of my uncle who passed away last year. It's sad to see the passing of someone. If someone close to you passes on, it takes lots of time to recover from that incident. Haiz. I dislike seeing people die, although my work makes me see those stuffs. It's more like, part of life. One day we will die too. Therefore, we should always cherish our loved ones, and not wait till they depart, then we start to regret. By then, it'll be too late already.

Traumatizing

2011-10-28T17:59:00.001+08:00

My first week of posting has passed. Quite happy that I have like saturdays & sundays to rest. It's been rather stressful the entire week. Feel that CI is like very strict and fierce. She's like always emphasizing on "You'll are already Y3, still everything don't know". Actually it's not that we don't know, it's just that we are not very sure. So sometimes it's just better to keep everything to yourself, and maybe go through everything on your own. And it's like after you get to know this person more, you will start to see all his bad sides. Sometimes you will see their good side, I agree. But most of the time, they are not very nice. Like, they will snatch things with you. I'm rather prepared to see it, coz my side has like 2 H/C. So I expect her to snatch my things to do. As usual right? I think I should like kind of expect that now. Every little thing also kan chiong, damn irritating lor. zzz. Haiz, totally stressed to the max. And she's like only caring about 2 people, that's all. She doesn't really bother about the rest. Always sticking to those 2. It's like she came to work just because of those 2. I don't think she has ever stepped into my cub before okay. Except for today taking BGM. It's like those jialat kind. >_< Supposed to do reflective essay, but what you want me to write? Positive remarks? Quite hard for me to write that you know. Coz I don't even feel the help. It's like who will nag and nag and nag and nag at you in front of the patient? WHO DOES THAT?! For my 2 years plus, no CI has done that before. It's my first time seeing this. She'll nag and nag until you damn fucked up kind. So, I only can just keep saying "ok", "ok" & "ok". That's all. Don't even want to retaliate. Or can I say, cannot even retaliate? Yup, that's correct. Even when we're taught something, she'll say we're not taught, not allowed to practice. Argh, whatever man. I know I should not be so critical about all this, but don't you think that it's a problem? It's an issue. You keep emphasizing we're in Y3, but you don't even let us do basic stuffs. Like adms? I'm sure we've done so many adms in the acute side, that we're like rather good at it. Medications also, want to serve also cannot. sian one you know. haiz, totally drained out. Everyday it's like going to war only. I feel so tired. I want to faster end this posting, and get out. Cannot take it, with this kind of people nagging at me non stop. Even if I want to do something well, it will be nagged until it's no longer well. That is why some people refrain from finding you, you know why? 'Coz you're a TERROR.

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

2011-10-25T17:38:00.000+08:00

As you can see, from the title, it says FRIENDS. So what do I think about friends? Friends are those who go through tough times with you. Share joy, sorrow, and laughter with you. They are the ones that always stand by you when something happens, no matter what circumstances. So do you call yourself my friend? That's the question I want to ask you. What would you do, if I were admitted to the hospital? What would you do if I landed up in a bad plight? Would you be there to comfort me? Or would you be there to mock at me, and just leave me alone. If you are one that will mock at me, I don't need a friend like you. What for have such a friend, am I right? It's like useless? o.o
Anyway, I have been friends with you for over a decade. That's a long time, a very very long time. We used to be such close friends, as in those very close. But after that, it changed. Now, we're like hi-bye friends. We seem to have different goals in mind. It's like, is there a need to dress up until so nice just to meet me? Is it that you want to be in a position, to look better? I'm not saying that you are, but do you even have the slightest thought about that? Why do we need to act as someone else when we aren't? Do we have to follow what others are doing? Is there even a need for you to do that? Are we not comfortable just the way we are? You like to compare what you are good at, ok. To me, I have to show as though it's nothing. But on the other hand, would you like me to keep complimenting about what I'm good at? What would you feel. Do you feel good? Do you like me to keep bragging about myself, and not bother about you? Ya, you can say whatever you want, but deep down you know the answer the best. I'm not trying to say that i'm very smart or what. But at least I try to put myself in your shoes, and think about you. But have you ever thought about me? Or even the slightest thought? I try to arrange gatherings, that's the least I can do. But it takes two hands to clap. It cannot always be one person doing the thing, and the other just follow. One day, we will all be tired of it. I'm sure you will not like it either.
I don't like to keep waiting. I really don't like, just like how much you don't like to keep waiting right? Don't do things to others which you don't want others to do to you. So what makes you think making me wait is the right thing? You can entertain others but not me. You can talk to others but not me. You can go out with others but not me. RIGHT? Whatever. I don't want to care already. Your problem is not my problem. I try and try, but have you ever seen my effort? no right? Bet you don't even fucking bother. I know. You will tell others that I'm this and that, I'm so sociable that I've got so many friends, I will never forget what you say to me. Never ever fucking forget. Sociable? I cannot be sociable is it? Sociable got wrong? Like you not sociable like that lor? You want to use terms like "guailan" or whatever, I don't really bother. It doesn't hurt me, but on the other hand, it bothers me to see you acting like this. You always say you are not ok with 5, but you still go. You say one thing, and you mean another. So is this what you call, acting like a friend? It's like backstabbing, you know? You don't like this person, yet you still go out. You hate this person, but you still call him a friend. What the fuck.
I want to tell you. If you don't like, say you don't like. Don't give me craps, like seriously. I would rather you tell me straight in the face, " I'm not interested." Then to give me the hope that you are, just to destroy it away after that. If you like me to do that to you, tell me ok. I will give you back x10000 times, harder. Bet you will remember my face, fucking much.
All thanks to you, i'm damn annoyed now. Fuck you.

Attachment has started, it has been great for the past 2 days, tml is deepavali, which means i'm off. Yay(:
Starting work on thursday, sayonaraaaaaa. Maybe I'll take a nap, or facebook&twitter.

Bye shitty.

inmymind.

2011-10-12T15:12:00.000+08:00

I've always wondered, what will I do when the right guy comes along. It's like, you can't forsee it to happen, nor can you like want it to happen. I think it's based on fate? It's like, you might like the guy, but that like is just a admire? Not really those like like? Then when you get too close to him, you think that you really like him, but actually you don't. Then that's horrible. Coz, the guy might think you are like playing with his feelings? I don't know, but this kind of thing, haiz everyone has to go through it. Ups and down, sucks.

Everyone has their ideal type of partner, me too. I think looks are quite important, not to the extent whereby your partner has to be extremely handsome/pretty, but acceptable. At least bother to dress up right? Would you want to go out with a person who doesn't even comb his/her hair, clothes not ironed. I think it's very unsightly. Money? It's hard to find a rich person, I know. It's like in EVERLAND. But it's impossible to live with a poor. No money, no honey.

I think relationships make people grow a lot mentally. You have to like constantly think about your partner, whether they like this or not. And there will bound to have quarrels, how do we solve them. Quarrels either makes us stronger, or breaks us apart, it's how we bother to solve it.

As I was rummaging through my pictures on my com, I suddenly realised that we've grown so much. From being enemies, to being friends, to being close friends now. Friends that will share secrets with each other, sorrows and even laughters. Somehow, I miss going back to school. Partly, it's because of friends, another reason is because I can get to catch a glimpse of your face. I don't know how to express myself, but whenever someone talks about you, I will be very curious to know. Is this just pure friendship? I know it'll be weird if we're together, but.. I know that if I am with you, I am very safe and secure. I feel like there is always someone guarding me, protecting me from any harm.

I think I'm very fickle-minded, it's like although I like this person, I can go and talk to another person quite close. Is it because I'm sociable? I don't know :(

When I first saw you, I thought you were quite nice, quite friendly. Because you were able to mix well. When we talked for the first time, I thought "oh, not bad". After that, we began to be a little bit closer, it all changed. People made fun of us, which caused us to be not so close than ever. That was the worst nightmare. You may think that I'm ok with it. Ya, I seem ok. I have to look ok. I have to be strong. I don't want to look like those weak girl which needs your 24hr help. I want to be independent. Because I know that one day when we are no longer together, I'll still be able to walk on my own, without anyone help.

I've got no mood, time to go and bathe.

If you're not interested, don't give me the hope that you are. Just leave.

I would rather be heartbroken now, than next time.

2011-10-10T09:18:00.000+08:00

HELLO!

Sorry for not being able to blog close to 1 month. Anyway, my OT & ED posting has ended long ago. Quite satisfied with Emergency though. Maybe after my bond with Heart Centre, I'll decide to work there. Let's see how (:

During the 2 weeks of holidays that I had, I spent those times watching Dream High & You're beautiful. I love dream high, very touching. How I wish Suzy was with Taec la! seriously, good pair ! AND I SUPER LOVE JASON & PIL SUK IN THERE!!!!!!!!!! Jason fucking hot okay, especially when he say " is it my turn already? " OMG, DAMN CUTEEEEEEEEE :D

Must watch must watch!!

REALLY NICE.

This is the theme song of dream high, nice!

And the next show I watched is You're beautiful. I love A.N.JELL. Especially HongKi & Yonghwa. Hongki's like damn cute, and YH is fucking handsome LIKE SERIOUSLY. Totally fall in love with their cuteness :P Currently watching another show "Heartstrings", which YH and ShinHye act in. I think it's quite nice :D

ANYWAY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO RAYMOND KOH :)

Yesterday, met Leo & Akina and head to Ray's birthday party place. Didn't know a lot of people, so we kind of like sat at one corner and talk among ourselves. I think it's normal ba. We waited for about 1hour, before ray & aash arrived. Damn long la!!! Ray was like damn surprised, damn funny lor. First time I see someone so gund one, don't even have any thought on the party! Funny. Played BANG BANG BANG. Quite fun la, coz i won! HAHAHA :)

&&&& I got freaked out twice at that party location la!! FIRST, is the stupid ray go and smack the cake on my face. OMG, I almost freaaaaaked outttttttttttttttttttt. It's like so disgustingggg!!!!!!!!!!!!! URGH! & the second time, is when STUPID RAY go and try bursting the balloon in my face!!! You know bursting balloon is like VERY LOUD. SO scary ok! But overall still fun la, hahaha. After the party ended about 5, we went to dhoby, first to PS to check out GV. turn out to have no seats, so walked over to cathay. Bought tix at cathay, to watch REAL STEEL @ 8. AWESOME man the show. And the small boy , MAX, is damn cuteeeee!! I SERIOUSLY LOVE HIM TO THE COREEEEE. But his attitude quite suck la, how can talk to the dad in that manner. But who cares, he so cute lor. I wish he's my nephew. hehehehe!!

Faded? :(

imissyou, really.

2011-10-10T00:29:00.001+08:00

my face feels like shit now!! :(

Tell you tml, goodnight!

Happiness.

2011-09-20T20:46:00.000+08:00

Started my ED posting yesterday. Still not bad, quite interesting place to learn stuffs. Was posted to the CCA place yesterday, the SNs there are quite helpful, will teach you things. HAPPY (: Today went to resus, saw a few cases, but didn't get a chance to perform CPR all those. Sad, but quite friendly the staff. Anyway, results out today. Quite contented lah, for the last sem my gpa shoot up to 3.4. DAMN HAPPY LOR :D Like finally my hardwork paid off. hehehe. Aiya, feeling quite tired, hmmm. Shall go to bed soon (:

CYA!!

P.S: 3 more days! :D

What is a relationship?

2011-09-15T19:30:00.000+08:00

As I was dreaming away while watching Family Outing, I suddenly thought about having relationships with other people. This variety show is quite interesting, there is this group of actors/actresses/guest stars, that will go to this specific house and take care of the person's house, while they are away. So they will have to complete whatever the family wants them to do, and take good care of the house. So from the show, the people get to know each other better, and more familiar with each other. As the show went by, there were people that joined, and people that left. When people that need to go, the family was very sad, because they spent so much time together. Every week filming for the show, and it lasted about a year. That is rather long, so it's naturally that they will be sad. Therefore, I started to wonder in my mind, what is a relationship?

So, I decided to google "relationship". And this is what it says: The way in which two or more concepts, objects, or people are connected, or the state of being connected.

It means that they are connected by friendship? I think that having relationships with people is good, because it enhances the chance of exposure to making friends, lets you mingle with people, and most importantly widen your horizon. But why are there some people who don't want to have relationships with others? That is something I can never understand. I don't know why, it's not because I choose not to know why, but because I cannot understand why. Do you get my point? I hope you do.

Anyway, I think making friends is my most capability that I can only do. Other than that, I think I rather suck. I'm not very sociable, I would say, but I try to make friends. There's always a saying "be friends rather than enemies". You never know when you'll need them, you will never know when they'll need you either. So, we should all have a open mind, and not look down on each other, or just assume that that person suck with a bad attitude, even though you have never spoken to her/him. I think that's the key point to making friends.

I learnt to make more friends only in poly. Seems like as we age, we learn more things. We become more sensible, and we will think through whatever that has to be thought through. We will start to think about our future, whether it is good or bad for us. We'll start to ponder whether this friend is a asset, or a liability to us. We'll also have new bunches of friends, and we must always remember our old friends. Never leave your old friends for your new ones, because that's the worst thing to do. If you can do this to your oldies, what more the newbies, right?

Some people will dislike others from making too many friends, because they feel that they are just flirting around. But, I feel that if you have the capability to have so many friends, means your flirting must be quite awesome. Instead of always looking on a person negatively, we should start looking at them positively. Like, why do they want to flirt? To make friends right? Making friends is not a harm, or rather, when you have many friends, next time they will be the ones who help you out. Be it at work, play, or any other thing. Rather than you have no friends, and in hard times, you suffer alone. That's the worst thing that can happen to a person.

I think this is the longest post I've ever typed. Quite satisfied with it. My mind is so clear now. Tomorrow will be the last day of OT attachment. Kind of looking forward to it. Today's posting was rather fun, had lots of fun time with my SNs. I think I'll miss being students soon. That's the only thing I'll miss when I graduate. I definitely will miss my girls, that's for sure. I'll miss those times in NYP, mac where we kept playing deal. I'll miss those times where we keep bullying fonglan. I'll miss our nursing lab days, our first ever OT scrubbing and gowning suit. I'll miss all the great things we have done for the past 3 years. Thanks for making my life so beautiful, showering me with all the laughters, super appreciated.

I miss you guys.

This is a relationship I will forever keep (:

Sick place to work.

2011-09-14T19:02:00.000+08:00

Attachment has been so far so good, although some people like seriously piss me off with their actions? I know I have like no rights to comment la, but nonetheless, I still wanna talk about them. Like wtf only. There's this particular girl who loves to order people around, like "don't put this here, put this there" , "dont anyhow touch this thing". lame shit or what, it's not like I don't know what to do, or have practically no idea what to do right? You think you higher level means you know more things? Especially when she loves to use that kind of "suckup" voice to talk to man. Totally turned off ttm. And she'll like to keep talking to our client in some "sexy" tone. Another girl, she loves to keep all the work to herself, it's like sharing with people will die kind? Ya la, survive in your own entire world man. With your work pilling on your brains, that's the best. Don't see your face, I most happy you know? (: HAHAHA. And there's also this woman, her face is as black as charcoal, and you totally cannot even differentiate her face from a angry face. Because it's already SO BLACK!!!! hahaha!!! I'm not being racist, but I seriously hate her to the fucking core, like fucking seriously. They just love to give you those fucked up face, like don't come and harass me, otherwise I'll fucking scream at you. LIKE WHATEVER? You think I want to go and see your face ar. If I can choose, I wouldn't even go there to see your fucked face la. WHO WANTS sia. LOL.
Ah whatever, it's like the 3rd day of posting already. 2 more days, and it's freedom!!! :) I'm so damn excited towards that. hehehehe. LIKE SERIOUSLY?!?!?!??!?! :D

OK, time to watch my family outing. BYES!
Hope tml will be a better day! :)

Attachment.... attachment... & more attachments...

2011-09-12T22:10:00.000+08:00

Oh man, I think I've neglected my blog for seriously a long period of time. So sorry! Have been super busy the entire 2 weeks of break. Went shopping, watched running man, and currently tuning in to Family outing. Super love Kimjongkook in running man, and I think Hyori's kinda cute in family outing. Hehehe. Oh yes.
I've been much in love with Korean people nowadays, after watching the korean variety shows. Super exciting lor. First of all, SHINee's my loveeee. I think Daesung's quite cute though. I love Yunho from DBSK, he's like super ultra extremely hot ttm. Rain? He's cool shit man!!!!! :D Jo kwon, a joker like seriously. Actually I think still got many many, but cannot think of it now. Oh yes, I think Yoona's v v v pretty (:

Today's the first day of attachment for me, it's a 2 weeks posting btw. Still not bad :) In the OT, managed to scrub at least a case today. Happy like siaooooo !!! :D Hope it'll be a good posting! (: Yups, gonna head to bed. Tml need to wake up early , siao liao.

NIGHTIES!!! (:

2011-08-25T22:52:00.000+08:00

Don't know why so emo nowadays. Like mood swing only lor. :(

Just now had my last paper in the afternoon, then played bang with hann, fl, & mel awhile. After that hann and fl had to go for OIPP briefing, so left me and mel. End up we play many different games, like snap, deal, bluff, ty-ti. If you know what I am talking about, otherwise byebye.

Suddenly thought of how lonely I am, no boyfriend to go out with during holidays. Totally don't know how to spend my time. Haiz. Smsed hann, felt so much better now. I think we're like in the same boat !!

Totally don't know why suddenly think of this thing. HAIZ. Maybe because most of my friends are having boyfriends. And I think it's very normal to have a boyfriend at this age ba.

Don't know why some people so easily find a boyfriend, and yet I'm not even able to find one. WHY!!!! :(

I'm so emo lor, like seriously!!

WHY AH WHY AH!!!! :(

TELL ME. Why no boyfriend :(

I also want to have someone special whom I can share my laughter and sorrow with. sob.

How I wish I can be like this picture below. With my love one, talking about many things under the sun. I wish :(

And maybe walking in the park with my lover. How romantic.

Even if it is a long walk, having him by my side will be the best thing God can give me.

I don't want to just find any tom dick harry to be my lover. I want to find someone who will love me, care for me, take care of me, love my parents, love God, put me first. I don't need someone to be handsome. What can a handsome face do? More like he'll go outside and find a woman right. Don't want that to happen to me. When I find a guy, I will devote myself to him. I don't want to just have a puppy love like that. I'm not young anymore. Already 20, don't even have time like those xmm to party party around :(

Haiz. Ok, shall not think about it.

But I need people to hang out with me, otherwise I'll be like literally bored to death man!! LIKE SERIOUSLYYYYY :(

MOST SADDEST POST, DON'T READ IF YOU DON'T WANT TO SCREW UP YOUR MOOD.

2011-08-24T17:38:00.000+08:00

I FEEL REALLY REALLY SAD TODAY. FOR SOME REASONS. I KNOW IT'S NOT MY FAULT, BUT IT MAKES ME FEEL LIKE IT'S MINE. IF I DIDN'T SAY YES, THIS WOULDN'T HAPPEN. IF I WAS NOT FREE, THEN I WON'T BE INVOLVED. I DON'T KNOW WHY I HAVE SO MUCH FEELINGS TOWARDS THIS INCIDENT. MAYBE IT'S BECAUSE I'VE KNOWN YOU'LL FOR SO LONG. MAKING ME HARDER TO COME UP WITH A DECISION. I KNOW WHATEVER I SAY WON'T BE SEEN BY YOU. I KNOW THAT YOU WILL NEVER STEP INTO MY BLOG, THUS I'M WRITING IT HERE. I KNOW THAT I'M ALWAYS SEEN IN THE BAD ROLE. I KNOW THAT I'M ALWAYS THE ONE BULLYING PEOPLE. I KNOW THAT I ALWAYS APPEAR TO BE SO STRONG ON THE OUTSIDE. BUT AM I REALLY THAT STRONG? YOU'LL NEVER KNOW IT TILL YOU KNOW ME REALLY WELL. I'M NOT REALLY STRONG ON THE INSIDE, I APPEAR TO BE STRONG, BECAUSE I NEED TO BE STRONG. I HAVE TO BE STRONG. IT'S LIKE I'M A CHILD IN AN ADULT'S BODY. I REALLY HATE BEING SO STRONG, APPEARING TO BE STRONG. BUT WHAT CAN I DO? I CANNOT POSSIBLY BREAK DOWN IN FRONT OF YOU GUYS, REALLY. I CANNOT BRING MYSELF TO DO THAT. I DON'T WANT ANY QUARREL, I DON'T LIKE ANY MISUNDERSTANDING, BECAUSE IT'LL BRING MORE HURT. I DON'T LIKE US TO FEEL SO WEIRD WHEN WE TALK. I LOVE THE WAY WE ALWAYS CHAT TILL WE GET STOMACHACHE. I REALLY LIKE THOSE DAYS WHERE WE HAVE ENDLESS THINGS TO TALK ABOUT. I WISH WE'LL BECOME BACK THEN. BUT FROM THE WAY I SEE IT, WE'VE SPLITTED. NO LONGER THE SAME ANYMORE, REALLY. THIS IS FROM MY PERSPECTIVE. HAIZ. I ALSO DON'T KNOW WHAT TO SAY. NOT EVEN IN THE RIGHT STATE OF MIND TO TALK. I FEEL SO DEJECTED, FEEL SO LEFT OUT. EVERYTHING THAT IS NOT NICE, IT'S COMING INTO MY BRAIN. I JUST NEED SOMEONE TO RANT IT OUT. I DON'T KNOW WHY AM I GETTING SO EMOTIONAL. DON'T KNOW WHY DO I NEED TO THINK SO MUCH. HATE THIS KIND OF ME.

FEEL THAT THE MORE QUARRELS/MISUNDERSTANDING WE HAVE, THE MORE DRIFT IT BECOMES. IT'S ALREADY DRIFTED ENOUGH, HAIZ. I ALSO DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO. HAVE TO PUT ON A MASK AND MAYBE ACT AS IF NOTHING HAS HAPPENED. PRETEND AS THOUGH I'M STILL HAPPY AND ALRIGHT WITH EVERYTHING WHEN I'M ACTUALLY NOT.

FEEL LIKE BREAKING DOWN. :(

What to write in a birthday card?

2011-08-20T16:25:00.000+08:00

Almost everyone celebrates their birthday once a year right? So, we will definitely have to write a birthday card for them. Yup! So, today I've decided to blog about " What to write in a birthday card ! " Interesting right? (: I know! You know why I've suddenly come up with this thought? Because tomorrow is my mum's birthday, and I haven't written anything on her birthday card yet. :( Will do it later though :D

Okay, so I shall start ok.

Firstly, writing a birthday card for someone, is to show them that they are special and are being cared for. Why would you want to write a birthday card for your enemy or whatsoever right? That's a little bit retarded.

Secondly, we should think about what we want to write in the card first. Pen it down on a piece of paper, your thoughts and ideas.

Thirdly, you can maybe insert a poem for them? Or maybe insert some nice pictures to go with it. Meaningful ones of course! Don't write ridiculous birthday messages. It isn't nice for the person to receive! And I'm sure you wouldn't one to receive one that is full of rubbish right?

Fourthly, you can include something personal that he/she has done for you, which made you appreciate very much. It'll make them feel very happy, and satisfied.

I personally love it! (:

OKAY! My post's done.

Gonna head to my books already, sayonara!

xx

Cupcake baking day w Mel & FL.

2011-08-19T23:02:00.000+08:00

Hello!

Today I have something to blog about, so I've decided to blog before my blog gets super dead! :(

So, as my title says, we did baking today! So happy that it's a success though. Shall touch on that later ok?

For now, it's a glance of my pictures. HAHAHAHA :)

So long never update a photo of myself, hmmmz.

This looks pretty decent enough, hehe!

Okay, so now I will tell you about my wonderful day today ! (:

Early morning, Mel & FL came over to my place. And that funny FL can even call me in the morning, and tell me that she's at my home ground floor already, and they are coming up, and she even asked whether i'm awake. Funny or what right?! I was busy playing maple, so I gave her a pretty lame answer " OF COZ!"

When they reached my place, we started on the baking thing. It's pretty fun baking with them, hahaha. Can bully FL especially, super funny!!! SNAPSNAP PHOTOS AS USUAL (: And we even played deal while waiting for it to be done. The retard gang, hahaha.

This is the mixture that we did(: AWESOME OR WHAT MAN!

We put it into the cupcake already. NICE RIGHT (:

And this is the outcome of it ! Super yummy!!! :D

Decided to snap some pictures before heading downstairs to study. We're good girls, we managed to study for about 3-4 hours? YEAP! So happy that I've finished my onco&neuro le. Left geron!! Yes man! Tomorrow I'll finish it up, and sunday start on management!! That's moi aim (: HEHEHE.

This picture is taken with our lovable cupcakes that we did!! SO NICE! We drew it on our own, pretty satisfied okay! (:

Oh yes, did I tell you that my dearest cousin gave birth? Her daughter is so cute!! see this picture, so lovable man!!

And my aunt has promoted to grandma already. HAHAHAHAH (:

So happy for them!! Happy to get a niece also! HEHE :D

Okay, off to play maple. BYES!

I'm level 28 already!! WANT TO FASTER LEVEL 30 ^^

Study, Study AND Study!

2011-08-15T22:35:00.000+08:00

Met up with Mel today for revision in school. Lunch-ed at koufu, and we decided to study there. Quite peaceful, but there were quite a number of students still in school surprisingly. It's probably, either the last week of school or exams week already. Having my first paper on the thursday. Hope I'll do well for it, yep! Studied super hard for it. Had lots of little talks in between studying, to keep us awake. So exciting! (:

Best friends are always there for you no matter what happens. Even during the bad times, they will still stay by your side.

Everyone has to study hard for exams now! Gambatteh.

Here's a kiss for all of you! *muacks*

HAHAHAHA (:

Gotta start continuing my studying. BYE!

For my friends.

2011-08-11T19:24:00.000+08:00

This song is for my friends who has always been there for me :)

Thanks for making friends with me, allowing me to make my school days so much more exciting.

I'll never forget all of you, who coloured my life so much.

Words can't express how much gratitude I have.

From the bottom of my heart, THANKYOU.

*kisses*

Things that I've learnt in the past few years

2011-08-06T23:19:00.000+08:00

#1 - A dream can only be a dream, it can never be your job because it cannot feed you.

I used to dream of many dreams, being a teacher, a lawyer, a tai-tai, a air stewardess, even a music teacher, because I love piano. But when I grew older, I started to not dream of any dream, instead work hard and maybe find a job that pays me well, to support myself. Being a teacher is not easy, nowadays you need at least a degree to teach in a secondary school. A lawyer earns good money, but you need to be smart in order to study law, since i'm not brilliant in that manner, obviously I cannot be a lawyer. A tai-tai, I wish. Maybe one day I'll hopefully hook up a doctor, or maybe a professor, or maybe a surgeon! I even wanted to be a air stewardess, because I can fly around, but my parents told me that it was a dangerous job, and very life-risky. Music teacher? I didn't even get to learn how to play piano, how to be a music teacher?

#2 - Don't comment about people's looks, if you aren't any better.

We always like to criticise people's looks, that's part and parcel of growing up. There's a saying " only immatured people gossip." Is it true? I think it is quite true. When we gossip, we're being as low, as cheap as those people to gossip about them. What for stoop to their level of immaturedness, and to gossip about them? I've learnt to just let bygones be bygones, whatever they want to say, just let them say. They want to criticize, let them. After all, God is watching them. They'll get their retribution one day, for sure. If they think they are so damn fucking pretty or handsome, and they feel that they deserve to criticize about other people's looks, let them. Let them feel that the entire world thinks that they are so damn pretty/handsome, but actually they are so damn ugly, bitchy, etc etc.

#3 - Do not call people stupid, unless you are fucking smart.

Do you have any rights to call people stupid? Are you our mother or father? Even if you are, you shouldn't be calling your kid stupid. If you call people stupid, so are you saying that you are very smart? If you think you are very smart, then you won't be so stupidly calling people stupid, because you would have the brains to think. Therefore, you are also stupid enough to call people stupid. Get it, you stupid fool? So, get a life. stop calling people stupid, when you yourself is stupid enough to be called stupid.

Cannot think of other things to blog already, I think this is the best ranting post I've ever made. I feel so happy now, I think I can have a good rest. Yes (:

Met up with my girls just now, we had a great time smacking insects at MBS there. Super funny okay. Alright, me wanna sleep. Goodnight to that stupid woman who scolded me stupid, I think you are so much more stupid than I am. OK? YOU CRAPPY GIRL. JUST GO TO HELL (:

I would wish that you're dead lah.

goodnight people!

xx.

Past 3 years.

2011-08-03T19:56:00.000+08:00

Decided to blog about our past 3 years of friendship, because we will be graduating soon. Will miss all of you guys badly. Still remember the first day of school, we all were at the auditorium outside, sitting down. Then we had our ice breaking game. Toured around the school after that.

Made friends in poly, lots of laughter, had a fun time together, joking, laughing, playing. I will never forget those times we spent together (: We had so many memories created in between us, it's just like we just knew each other yesterday only, and we are graduating already. Really upset.

Remembered the first time my girls came over to my house, was to take random photos, like the one below. That was when we were in Year 1. We had a fun time snapping pictures in front of the webcam, taking jump shots like crazy, getting ourselves sweated so much. But it was really fun and enjoyable.

Our first date to buy Hann's present. Still remembered vividly that Hann knew what we were buying for her, cause I apparently posted up the picture of her present on my blog, and she got access to it! So heartbroken, but happy that she liked the present (: That was our first present that we bought for her, hehe. Back then, we were all so innocent and cute. So young, we have all matured now.

Our first manicure together, we had a fun time airing our hands in the shop, even carrying our bag was tough. Still remembered that FL smudged her nail polish, and she said that she wasn't gonna paint her nails ever again. But we loved our nails to the max, so we went to the toilet and snap photos of it.

First birthday celebration for Ohnmar, she had a surprise from us. Good that she liked it, happy that we had fun too. All this memories, are just way too good.

Went to Spotlight to celebrate Ohnmar's birthday, we took a picture at the mirror cause it looked kinda cool back then. Interesting right? We got to become photogenic friends! Taking lots and lots and lots of pictures together, keeping all those memories :D

We even dressed up like some crazy girl, but when I saw this pictures, I remembered that we had a fun time playing with all those stuffs. So fun and exciting. See all our laughter, so HAPPY!

And I was so retarded to sit on that crazily small little bike, retardedness.

Our first karaoke at my place, found out many things. FL and ML knows how to sing many chinese song! Ohnmar was just sitting there laughing and laughing, cause she doesn't know chinese back then.

We took our family portrait before going singing.

We even tried the hear no evil, speak no evil and see no evil. Cuteness! :)

Our first heart shape picture, and it was a success! :)

Our first jumpshot ! Tried many times before finally taking one nice one. Happy that it turned out well. We were sweating profusely, after jumping for like 5-10minutes. Had lots of fun jumping. Good exercise! :D

This was our first group photo shot. If only we didn't have to change our group for presentation, how awesome would that be :( Missed the group of girls! The girl gang! :D

As usual, FL always does crazy things, which makes us laughing like mad dogs. She never fails to make us laugh. Can even laugh till stomache. That's how power she is.

First time to Jurong Point with Ohnmar. Had a fun time sitting on the floor and snapping photos. It was interesting!! (: We didn't find a place to take photos, so we went to some kindegarten area, where there wasn't many people, and we started snapping photos. HAHAHA (:

After that, we went to Bishan area to take more photos. That was her first time there, brought her around my hometown and walk. Chatted, laughed heartily, had a fun time there!!!!! (: It was super super super fun!

Look at the retarded pose she did, haha!! I made her do it!! PRO RIGHT :D

My 19th birthday with my girls, chatted, played deal, sparklers, barbeque. Oh yes, that was our first barbeque as a group! :)

Our first photo of the day, as you can see, we have all our smiles on our face. HAHAHA!! :D

I was about to go and molest hann's butt, hahaha!! That's the most funniest picture in my entire poly life, hahhaha!!

GIRL GANG! (:

We had a fun time playing sparklers together. As usual, that was our first time! (: We have many first time doing things, always trying out new stuffs. Which made it interesting, rather than doing everything same always. Kinda boring right?

Chatted all day night, had a happy night with them all (: Hope we'll always stay like that, with a smile on our face. And when we meetup next time, we'll have lots of things to talk about, like NOW!

Our first cycling at ECP!! IT WAS VERY VERY HOT AND SUNNY. BUT VERY FUN ALSO! (:

I LOVE THIS PICTURE, CAUSE WE ALL LOOK SO PRETTY! (:

MUACKKKKKKKS ~

Ohnmar's birthday! (: WE TOOK NEOPRINTS! OUR FIRST NEOPRINT (:

And, I'll never forget that retarded picture that came out, with my head stuck in the middle of the picture. SO DAMN UGLY!! :(

First time as a group to Sakae Sushi for Melissa's birthday. We had buffet!! And apparently, all of us were aunty enough to bring a plastic bag each. HAHAHA!! SUPER FUNNY :x Will never forget our "auntiness". LOLZ.

JUST ACIA with the girls, it was a loooooong time ago!

OUR FIRST EVER FLYER FAILED TRIP :( SO SAD. DIDN'T MANAGED TO GET A STUDENT PRICE TICKET :( SO SAD.

But we had a fun time taking lots and lots of photos!! (: That made up everything!

Finally, we went to the Singapore flyer. Due to the Mcdonald game, we won 1 for 1. And we got 2 tickets. Therefore, 4 of us went! (: Shirley, Ohnmar, FL and ME! :D It was super super duper duper extremely funnnnnnnnnnnnnnn !! (:

UP ON THE FLYER!! (: LOVE THE LIGHTING ^^

First date at bishan playground, running up and down, posing at the playground like some 3 retards. Acting like Aunty Lucy, laughing non stop..

NEOPRINTS! PRETTY! (:

Our first christmas party together. Playing sparklers as usual. It was fun fun fun !! (: Might not even be able to celebrate christmas this year together, since we're having PRCP :( Will miss all of you guys.

SHIRLEY'S 21st birthday was a blasttttttttttttttttttttttt !! (: SEE OUR HAPPY FACES. hehehehe.

A day out with Ohnmar at the changi airport! (: WE KEPT PLAYING DEAL THERE. LIKE SOME CRAZY GIRLS :) BUT IT WAS FUNNNNNNN. Always doing all the crazy stuffs, I think we're like the crazy clan instead. hahahaha!! :) As you can see, we love taking photos. We're like on standby kids.

FIRST TRIP TO MBS! (: We wanted to sit the boat, but it costs us $5. Didn't want to take it, due to expensive-ness! HAHA!! AUNTY RIGHT ? (:

So we went to the casino instead, hehehe. Didn't gamble there la, dun worry. ONLY GO THERE TAKE PICTURES. LOL (:

The day when Miss Rohaiza made a cake and nasi lemak for everyone, love her! She's super nice to us. Snapped photos again. Photos gang (:

OUR FIRS SCRUBBING PHOTO AS A CLASS (:

OT NURSES! :D

First sandwich made as a class, for each other.

OUR FYP PRESENTATION. Everyone wore so prettily (: And this is like the prettiest photo. Miss those times.

See the 6 faces, missing out on ML :( If not this would be complete!

As usual, Shirley and I love to bully hann. HAHAHA!! (: She's a valley in between us. LOL.

Cookies that I made for melissa, FIRST TIME!!!!!!!!!! :)

Last nurses day together :( WILL MISS MY GIRLS VERY MUCH.

First ice skating together as a group. But not all came :(

Mother duck bringing baby ducks out. HAHAHA!! (:

On our way to Lau Pa Sat. First time being there too! (:

First time watching Fireworks together! Super nice, love it !! (:

First FREE COKE WE MANAGED TO GET !!!! AUNTYS!! :D

First bowling date on my birthday, love it super much!!! These memories will always be in my heart.

Our JustAcia dinner (: With lots of love.

The cake that Hann & Shirley made for me. Touched ttm. Love the presents that they gave me too. REALLY SUPER EXTREMELY TOUCHED. Still remembered that when they took the cake out, my face literally became so hot. SUPER HOT. so shy to do this kind of thing at the canteen! SO EMBARASSING :(((( HAHAHA.

Will miss all of them when we graduate :( Just hope that we'll be able to have meetups occasionally, and talk about life, discuss and laugh like now. Hope that we'll still keep in contact, always! My wish is to go on a graduation trip with my girls :( So sad, my parents don't allow. Haiz. That's my GREATEST wish. To commemorate all our past 3 years, it's been great knowing all of you, Ohnmar, FL, Hann, ML, Shirley & Mel. We're like super bonded now, although there have been misunderstandings here and there. but I'm happy that we can still remain as a group. It's not easy to have 7 people in a group, because there is bound to have conflict. But we did it ! I think we have grown tremendously. From being a kid, to a teenager, to now being an adult !

Those days we spent out together, walking, chatting, laughing, taking photos, going to changi airport just to play deal, munching on subway, giggling about every little thing, spending our time at South Canteen, those memories will stay in my heart forever. I'll never forget those times we spent with each other. It was all FUN! :)

Hope that we'll all find our happiness!! :D

My 20th birthday celebration.

2011-08-02T23:18:00.000+08:00

HELLO EVERYONE!

Today is my 20th birthday!! :D

Went for dinner at Ichiban Boshi with family at MBS on sunday. Had a great time there. :) Picture as shown. hehe.

My birthday cake made by Yunhann & Shirley. I love it super much!

Went bowling today at Marina Square. Had a great time with my girls. Spent my birthday happily! Laughed super hard when FL slided into the lane, super funny!!!! :D

Photos, photos, and more photos! :)

Had Just Acia for dinner with my girls. FongLan & Mel left early. Took many many photos, and we were laughing non stop at the place. Super enjoyable! Never gonna forget that time.

Went to take neoprints after that, love the neoprints super much! :) THANKS FOR ALL THE LOVELY BIRTHDAY PRESENTS AND WISHES! LOVE YOU GUYS!!!!! :)

THANKS FOR MAKING MY BIRTHDAY SUCH A SPECIAL ONE, LOTS OF APPRECIATION (:

xx.

2011-08-02T22:08:00.000+08:00

Met up with my girls and Farand yesterday for Ice skating @ Kallang :D Had a great fun there! Super love the place, I love ice skating!! I SERIOUSLY WANT TO GO BACK THERE AGAIN, IT'S SO DAMN FUNNNNNNN. Especially when you go one round, the air is like so cooling so refreshing. Super enjoy there.

This photos were taken while waiting for that VIP Melissa to come, she takes forever OKAY. We even tried to kill time, playing DEAL. Hahaha!! We're like the DEAL GANG!! :P

Finally headed into the Ice skating rink. Super love!! :D

Ice skating!! <3

This picture looks like our mother duck bringing the little ducks out, hehehe!!

Resurfacing for about 5-10minutes.

Took a train to dhoby ghaut station, the 5 girls :D

Hann and shirley squeezing in the mrt seat, hahah!!

Walked to Lau Pa Sat. Had our dinner there. Super nice the food. Super full also. HAHAHA :D

Oyster omelette is the best! Love it.

On the way to MBS.

Fireworks that we caught at MBS, we're lucky girls!! We managed to catch last weeks fireworks at MB. And this time at MBS. Cool shit !

While walking to MBS, we saw FREE COKE GIVEAWAY!! All of us ran, and queue up. AUNTYS!! LOL.

But we love free things, haha!!

That's my day, super fun!! ENJOYABLE TTM (:

2011-07-29T17:22:00.000+08:00

Hello.

Lessons this week has been very hectic. Next week is gonna be worst then ever. Have presentation on thursday, and need to submit my reflective journal too. Sian max. Tml meeting my girls at 1:30pm to go ice skating, excited much!! Eating at lau pa sat after that, woo, so happy!!

Lesson ended 1 hour earlier, happiness. hehehe!

Anyway, thinking back, we only have 2 more weeks with each other. Time passes, soon we'll be graduating. We won't have time to meet up with each other, no time to talk nonsense craps to each other. Attachment posting are the most fun one, especially I love IMH posting. Playing with the patients like crazy, and our chompchomp feast!!

Actually, I don't really know what to blog about now. life's boring.

Oh yes, I made jelly this morning, it tastes good! :D

Nurses day cum National day.

2011-07-27T23:38:00.002+08:00

As promised, pictures uploaded.

Celebrated nurses day cum National day with my girls. Had lots of fun snapping pictures away! Hahaha. I think that's like girls hobby? :)

Alright, time now is 11:36pm, school starts at 11am tml. Damn sian okay. Seriously :(

In a few weeks time, I'll be starting attachment already. So sian like crazy. Not really looking forward to it though. My fyp today was super fun!! Designed the boards like crazy!!

Left around 8? Super late okay!!

But at least everything was done, only left to stick the words, hahaha. Happy that it is half-done :)

Okay, I think I need to sleep already.

Goodie nights! :)

My fyp poster No. 1

Fyp poster No. 2 !!

NICE RIGHT? :)

2011-07-26T20:44:00.000+08:00

This Song (Translation) Lyrics

Even though I want to buy you a pretty necklace
Even though I want to take you out on a ride in a nice car
Even though I want to dress you in nice clothes
Even though I want to take you to nice places

This hand that I put inside my pocket grabs nothing
How can I get you
My position doesn't suit you
Regardless, can you stay by my side

The only thing I can give is this song
All I have is this voice
Even if this makes you laugh
But I still sing
I hope you accept it

Even if you say it's okay
Even if you say it's okay if I have you
Even if you say you're happy everyday
Even if you say you don't what anything more

Pretty, good things; fun, cool things
You obviously want to do these things too Baby
You know that if you stay by my side I can't do these things
Regardless, can you stay by my side

The only thing I can give is this song
All I have is this voice
Even if this makes you laugh
But I still sing
I hope you accept it

I only have this song
I really have nothing but this voice
I don't know if this will make you laugh
But I still sing
I hope you accept it
I hope you accept it

Busy Bee.

2011-07-25T21:52:00.001+08:00

I'm so busy with school nowadays. So busy till I have no time to even spend time blogging. So crappy right? I know, sorry! :(

Will do a proper post maybe this week yeah! :D

Year 3 is very stressful, sorry for neglection.

Oh yes, I've been watching We Got Married 'Adam's couple' few days back. It's super nice. I love JoKwon&GaIn very much! JoKwon's damn sweet lah, totally can kill me alive :(

hehehehe, wish I can find a husband like that!! HAHAHAHA ^_^

OKOK, I NEED TO DO MY MANAGEMENT SLIDES & PREPARE MY POSTERS FOR FYP.

BYE!

xx.

Mel's 21st Birthday Celebration

2011-07-20T19:20:00.000+08:00

Met up with my girls on Saturday. Had a birthday celebration with them. Lots of fun, and laughter. Managed to get a kite flown up, so happy. That is my first time flying a kite, in my entire life okay! Big achievement! :D

After that, we decided to go and play water at the ground floor. Took lots and lots of photos. All are in facebook. Kinda lazy to upload them in blogger, cause it lags super much. So I've only uploaded a few, hehe.

Homed around 10 plus. Overall, it was a fun day with them :)

Sunday, didn't go down to church. Because it was at the Indoor Stadium, and it's kind of troublesome to go down there too. Super packed. Went to bugis to get shoes, and shop around with Sissy & Momma. Had durians after dinner, yummy max.

Monday, school as usual. This week, lessons either start late and end early or start early and end early too. So happy, because we have all passed our skill test, so we can have an entire week of break! woo! shiokness.

I want to learn how to make more and more cookies, especially I want to learn how to make tiramisu!! I think it's very very very niceeeee :D

Alright, below are pictures!

ENJOY :)

This are the cookies that I made for Melissa. Thoughtful and nice right? :)

Cookies for the day.

Our meals at the Marina Barrage.

That's the birthday girl, and she's holding our gifts. Pretty right? ;)

Managed to catch a glimpse of the NDP rehearsal. Coolios!

The kites.

Kites.

The Singapore Flag.

Pictures @ the water area at Barrage.

Birthday girl.

Time to go and do my project stuffs. Catching WGM on facebook, super funny!!

JoKwon and GaIn, damn cute lo !!

BYEBYE :)

xx.

Pictures, Pictures, and more Pictures.

2011-07-16T10:00:00.000+08:00

Good morning!

Haven't been blogging for the past few days, because I was very busy studying my skills test. So sorry! Oh yes, I finally passed my skill test, after studying so hard for it. And teacher said that she'll give me a good mark, made me happy to the max! Hahaha.

Took photos with my girls few days back. Time to upload them, because we are so cute! :)

HAHAHAHAHA.

I went to spotlight, and I saw this cute hat, that says " Happy birthday ". But apparently, it's too small for my head :( But it looks so cute on me okay! :D

& I saw this pilot hat also, suited my outfit for the day, damn cool lor!! I totally love it. But I didn't buy it, cause I wouldn't wear in Singapore! It's so weird!! Everyone will be like staring at me, with those weird looking eyes. I don't want! :(

But it looks so chio!!

While waiting for lecture yesterday, we didn't have anything to do. Took pictures with Mel & Ohnmar at lib. Actually only 4 pictures to be exact. Lols.

Gonna meet my girls later to celebrate this Aunty Mel's birthday. She must be on cloud nine!! :D

I hope she'll have a fun time with us, after all, we're graduating soon :(

Will miss you guys.

Sick and tired of the word " i don't know "

2011-07-13T20:16:00.000+08:00

As my title says, I'm feeling very sick and tired of the word " I don't know ". Each time someone says that, they hope to get across something without making any decisions. Am I right? Saying that once or twice is okay, but repeatedly is becoming very irritating to the ears sometimes. Don't know why I'm feeling so irritated this few days.
No mood to even talk about anything. But I don't like people to leech onto me. Totally hate that kind of feeling sometimes. It's like, they are not even trying their best to think of ideas, only know how to say i dont know , i dont know. And they want to get across it. So zzz right?
Ok la, shall not crap anymore.
Gonna watch my We Are Singaporeans liao.

Byebye.

xx.

Comparison.

2011-07-12T20:00:00.000+08:00

Hello my friends.

Sorry for being unable to blog these few days. Were kind of busy the entire week. Running up and down, looking for my home's furniture. Finally managed to purchase one at Cellini. It looks quite nice, and my family likes it most importantly.

Ok, so school today and yesterday was great. Timings were short. My friends have passed their skills, happy for them. Left Hann & myself on Friday. Have to pass no matter what!! It's year 3! And it's 8 credits ok!! CRAZY MADNESS!!

We always like to compare ourselves with others, just like the picture below. Comparing between the red apple and green apple.

Why do we like to compare?

Maybe it's because we want to be better than them. Or maybe we feel that if we compare, and we are better than them, we will win in some ways. Ya, to a certain extent. But everyone has his/her own unique ways of doing somethings, so maybe we shouldn't compare every little thing.

Like during exams, we always like to compare answers, like what is your answer for a , b , c , etc etc. We do that because we want to affirm ourselves that our answers are correct, and we'll be more relieved. But on the other hand, what if our answers were wrong? We'll be so devastated, thinking that we were about to fail our exams. Am I right?

We also like to compare our results, and see who did better. And we'll sometimes praise the person for doing well, that's nice. And the person that gets praised will feel good too, because he/she has done well for that particular test. So they'll feel motivated to work even harder. Maybe that is why everyone in the world likes to compare with each other.

I never liked to compare, because either one person or the other will get hurt. And usually, you are the one getting hurt yourself. Like comparing your boyfriend to your friends boyfriend. Your bf will never be as perfect as your friend's bf. Unless you change ur bf. So what for compare? It makes yourself even sad only. But on the other hand, also cannot totally don't compare. Then there is no standard at all. Like this, you might as well just pick a ugly, smelly, fat Tom Dick or Harry. Why bother to choose one that looks good, loves you, etc etc. Right or not?

So, I feel that we should not always compare with others. On the other hand, we should maybe choose things to compare? THINK SO.

Ok la, I want to watch my channel u show already.

BYEBYE.

xx.

Final Year Project.

2011-07-08T21:15:00.000+08:00

Hello!

Had my fyp presentation today, everyone wore formal. Super pretty! Fyp presentation was great, teacher said it was excellent. Happy with that. After presentation, we took lots and lots of photos. Later you can slowly go through all of them, 1 by 1. Hehe.

Managed to run through my skills during lab today. There was a ang moh teacher around. She guided Hann & myself with the skills. She's not bad, quite good. We managed to practice CLC, scrubbing, ETT intubation & ETT suctioning. Contented with it, hehe. Results were okay surprisingly, not very badly done, but still ok! :)

Went home after lab, super tired. Caught my Devotion show before bathing. Just finished my dinner, and I'm planning what to do after this. It's already 9:10pm. Should I study my skills again, or should I work on the tutorial presentation slides due this coming Thursday? Hmm.. Not sure what to do though. I'm lost in wonderland.

Okay, I think I should start on my tutorial slides first, before thinking about my skill test. After all, I'm rather confident in it. Just need to get those words into my head. I'm a happy girl today. Hehe.

If only you were like that everyday, I think I would be the happiest girl on earth.

Enjoy my pictures! tata.

What title leh?

2011-07-07T20:11:00.000+08:00

Hello my friends!

Theory test was over already, quite okay though. Although there were a few questions that I got it wrongly. But nevertheless, it's still doable. Happy much. The questions weren't as hard as what I thought it to be. Luckily. Theory test ended at 7pm. First time I stayed in school till so late, after I mia-ed from SU. Hehehe. Headed home after that. Ohnmar left early, Hann & Shirley had group meeting, Lan & Mel had some OIPP meeting. So I went home with Muileng & Zhangyi. Was so tired after I reached home, but still had to come up with my FYP speech. I'm like so tired nowadays, don't know why either. Getting old maybe ):

Today, lesson started at 9am. Had a hard time getting up, was super tired and sleepy. And apparently my bed was too comfortable already. Hahaha! Went to school with my dreadful legs. Socio lecture first, then we had break. Decided to munch on something at North Canteen. Ate the Taiwan Oyster Mee Sua. Still felt that Shihlin's one is much better. Yup :) Played deal, as usual. Had tutorial lessons after that. Ended off my day with lab lesson. Realised many mistakes :( So sad. Practiced for skill test, since it's next friday. Need to study le! No time to play play play liao! :( But once friday skill is over, Saturday will be a party day for us! Happy occasion for everyone of us. Excited to celebrate Mel's 21st! Old le she! Hahahaha.

Shall stop here for now, need to write my fyp speech. Hope that tml, Alan will be satisfied with it. After all, he wasn't really a very good teacher to begin with. Just end it off here is best.

Shall post some of my cute cute face for you to enjoy, hahahah. Just kidding!

BYE!

I need more courage.

2011-07-05T17:44:00.000+08:00

I wish that God can give me more courage, to fight for the people that I love. To tell you how much I care about you. I love you, but do you? I care for you, but do you? I want to be there for you, what about you? I just want to see your face, do you? I just want to laugh at you, what about you? I'm not sure about your feelings :( What should I do. Lost in the jungle, no aim in life. All I see, is your shadow. I'm so scared of being in a relationship already, so many failed ones. How to make me believe in them. Haiz. I wish that an angel can come and save me, give me courage to face all this. I wish...

There's theory test tml, and I have to like start studying right now. But I don't know what am I doing on this blog. It's like a place for me to think about you, write about you, and start dreaming about those happy occasions. I know I'm stupid enough to type all this craps, but what to do. I'm a girl who wants to rely on someone too. I'm not as strong as what you think I am. Weak, that's what to describe me now.

Haiz.

I hope that theory test will be easy. bye.

xx

Mutual trust.

2011-07-04T19:14:00.000+08:00

How do you expect me to trust you when you do all this behind my back? You only claim that I am in the wrong, but have you ever put yourself in my shoes? Lending you my IC to make a mobile line, telling me that you would not get me into ANY trouble, and now.. What is this? The starhub call me regarding this matter, telling me to solve the matter. And the bill costs over $1000. What do you expect me to do? You expect me to just sit there and believe that you will pay? Do you even have the means to pay that $1000? I'm not looking down on you or what. But by what you say, every month you can only pay $100, means you have to take AT LEAST 10months to return that money. Do I have so much time for you to pay back? In the first place, from day 1 you take the phone, you should have paid for it already. And not keep the bills until now, where it costs up to $1000, before paying for it. You say that you would not get me into trouble, but you got me into trouble. You only push the blame to others, but you never think about whether issit your fault. I'm kind enough to lend you the IC, and this is the fuck you give me. Whenever you need something, I lend you. You need answers for your books, I give you. You need money urgently, I lend you. Am I not a good friend enough? And this is the fuck you give me. DO I DESERVE ALL THIS SHIT ANOT? And now, you turn around and say it's my fault for not telling you that I am coming up to your place to collect money. Hello. You think that if I tell you my parents are coming, will this matter be solved? My whole aim is to solve it urgently, AS SOON AS POSSIBLE. You know?! ZZZ.You blame me for making your mother so sad, argh whatever. But why don't you look on a different side, who is the one that make your mother sad? Is your WRONGDOING, you know? Is the matter that you caused, or trouble that you made, that caused your mother to be so sad. Choking up a bill of $1000++, is what makes your mother SAD. Not me! So, I'm telling you that you should learn to be more matured, and not give your parents so much headache. After all, we are already so old. We should have more brains, and be more matured.

Sociology presentation was great, Mr Clemaus said that it was very well done. And I'm very happy due to his comment. Made my mood turn 360degrees. Hehe.

Okay, I need to study for nursing lab theory test now. bye!

:)

Sociology is a killer.

2011-07-02T17:42:00.000+08:00

I've finally completed my sociology slides. So tired to do that, draining my brain cells like mad. Totally so tired after doing it. Now have to study for my SBL which is on Monday. Suctioning. I hope it'll be okay, pray. About a month more to my exams, so sian you know. Although I'm looking forward to finishing exams, but I'm not really looking forward to attachment. Don't know why. I know attachments are the best place to learn new things, but it's like so sian lor. No mood to go for attachments. After that graduate already, cannot even meet my girls already. So sad.

I had NAPFA test yesterday, met this cute boy at stadium. He's super cute lor, hehe. I managed to run the 2.4km okay! Power right! (Y) Went home after that, and now my whole body is aching like shit. So long never exercise le. Cannot believe I even can run 2.4km, wahahaha. GOOD :D

Gonna study for my nursing lab theory test which is next week. BYE (:

xx.

Not as strong as what you think.

2011-06-30T22:10:00.000+08:00

I always thought that I was much stronger. I always feel that I could face everything. I never liked to show people the weak side of me. But I really cannot take it already, I don't like to be treated like that. When there's good time, we're happy. But when things turn upside down, you just leave me hanging on my own. I don't like this kind of situation, whereby everything is ME alone. I don't like to be alone. I'm a human, I have emotions too. All humans cannot control their emotions well enough, same like me. I wish I was much braver, much stronger, more willpower. But I don't. So sick and tired of everything. Totally have no energy to even quarrel with you.

我没有你那么坚强。没有你说的那么勇敢。因为我需要你的爱，来照顾我，安慰我，保护我。希望有一天，我跟你会像童话故事的女跟男主角一样幸福快乐，过着每一天。我不喜欢一直付出，而你没有感觉到。会把我像一个傻瓜看待。

我很希望能够跟你在一起，跟你走每一个路，跟你度过每一个难关，因为只要有你在，什么都不怕。“天大的他，有你在什么都不怕”。

我很累，非常累。我不想在说话了。我不知道自己在做什么。对人那么好又何必呢，人家会感激你吗？反而，他们会说废话。让我非常难过，真讨人厌。

我不想再吱吱咋咋了，我很累。很累。

晚安。

再见，亲爱的。

Self-confidence.

2011-06-29T22:28:00.000+08:00

Good evening! :)

It's 10.30pm now, gonna head to bed soonz! Tomorrow have to wake up early, and go to school. Lessons start at 9am tml. So sian you know :( Hate waking up early in the morning, I need my beauty sleep badly! *RAHHHH*

Anyway, this morning I had already blogged. Just wanna post some pictures up, so I decided to make another post. Hehehe. Crazy me.

I think I'm retarded.

Just now, went to the bank to settle some things with family. Bored bored bored! Totally don't understand any banking stuffs. I think I'll just faint on the spot. HAHAHA.

Okay, stop here for now. I need to sleep. I'm a happy gurl today. So many happy things which makes me so happy. Hehehe ^^

me love you, mwahs!

Show you my cute cute face, byeees!

How to make people believe you?

2011-06-29T11:35:00.000+08:00

We all want others to believe us especially when we tell the truth but in many cases we fail to convince people to believe us because we lack the proper convincing skills.

Why don’t people believe you?

believing they know more: its much harder to convince someone to believe you if he thinks that he knows more than you about a that subject. If a person regards himself as an expert and your ideas sounds irrational then he won’t believe you

Skeptics: Skeptic people question everything that is new to them and that’s why you need an additional step when trying to make them believe you

How to make people believe you?

Use Body language: In body language having a straight back, visible palms and strong eye contact shows that you are trustworthy so make sure you send these signals to the subconscious mind of the person you are trying to convince.

This is what I've found out for making people believe in you. It's not as easy as it seems to be, but it takes time. Earn the respect, rather than to throw it away. You will need it one day. By lying to the person doesn't do her any harm, but to yourself only. Know your limits, what is right and wrong. Don't want to keep pushing, you should know what you are supposed to do and perform up to that. Otherwise, how do you want a person to believe you? Say is easy, action is hard.

So tired of nagging like a old grandma, if you wanna do like that, I will do like that too. But don't turn around and bitch saying I'm an asshole, because you are the one that want me to treat you like that. You should know what I mean, unless you need me to spell everything out to you clearly. I'm sure you don't want to ruin your OWN image, right?

So stupid talking to some retardedly down syndrome kid. Just totally waste my time.

Goodbye.

Time to study for my theory test, not gonna give a crap to you :)

明知我爱你.

2011-06-28T16:17:00.003+08:00

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
放弃你忘记你只怕我无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里
我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

告诉你瞒着你只不过是个决定
但为何到如今我依然无法前进
不知道为什么会如此莫名紧张你
我越了解你越靠近你越犹豫

明知道我爱你却不敢告诉你
我害怕失去你宁愿沉默不语
该如何整理幸福在手里
我恨自己无能为力

明知道我爱你却不敢靠近你
我假装不在意反而痛了自己
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道我也没关系

明知道我爱你假装不在意
多痛都可以不能没有你
只想永远永远爱你
你知不知道真的没关系

有一点不舒服今天，因为我对有些人彻底的失望。是非常失望。我都不知道要做什么，要帮你还是不要呢？如果我帮你，人家就会讲很多废话。我也很头痛。哎，不要管了啦。我现在什么都不要做，让你一个人做好吗?
我也不知道我为什么不可以控制我自己的情绪，让别人非常难看。很讨厌这样的我，不可以对别人这样。我应该好好的控制我的情绪，不要让我自己好像废狗一直叫个不停。
原本，今天应该是一个开心的一天，反而被你们搞到我头痛，全身痛。讨人厌！
好啦！不要管了。

跟你们谈我今天的好晴天吧。

Lab lessons started at 8am today, woke up around 6.15am. Was still tired like a pig. Totally couldn't wake up, due to holidays sleeping too much you know. So lousy right, cannot even wake up early. Likeapig. After lab, had 2 hours of break. Went to South Canteen to play Deal , before eating lunch there. Super super fun, it's like everyday playing deal. Hahaha. Bored bored bored now!
Left school around 2pm, and headed home to catch my tv. Now feeling so much relieved already, after blabbering out everything. FEELS GREAT! Haha.

Your idea of the perfect first date.

Since I've nothing to do now, so I shall just continue with the story that I'm supposed to complete. Which has been left there for about couple of months. So sorry!
Hmm, so what's a perfect date to me ? Actually I don't really have a IDEAL perfect date. Because a date doesn't need to be perfect, as long as you have the right person with you, at the right time. But I think a date would have a dinner, maybe a movie, and a walk along the beach, or maybe just a walk to be able to heart-to-heart talk. Dinner, candlelight dinner would be great, but who does candlelight dinner nowadays? Unless on maybe special events, but how many special events can you have. Maybe a normal dinner would be enough, it's the company that matters anyway.
A movie. Horror movies are great! HAHAH. It's the best time to lie in your boyfriend's arms, hahaha!!! I'm so retarded, omg. can't believe I even bothered to type that in, so idiotic I know. But I'm a girl!! I want to be protected :( If not horror movie, then maybe a romantic movie would be nice. Imagine a movie having kissing halfway, haha!! NICE.
To end it off, a walk by the beach, awesome man! It'll be the best date ever, so windy and cooling. Then you'll lend me your jacket, awwww. SWEET!
I can just totally fall asleep into my dream now, haha!

OK LA, I need to study now, BYE!

Don't miss me too much yeah, loves!

xx.

Am I that young?

2011-06-27T19:45:00.001+08:00

I always love to say " I'm young what."

That's just an excuse to tell people that I'm young. But actually, am I really that young? I'm close to turning 20 in about 1 month plus. Hitting the age 2x, really makes me feel old sometimes. Although it is NOT really old compared to the entire world. Everyone grows old, so do I. It's nothing surprising to see one grow old.

So since I'm turning 20 in about 1 month plus time, I should have some goals in life right?

Hmm.... So what's mine? (let me think)

When I was young, I used to have a ambition as a lawyer. Because I wanted to help everyone in the world. Most importantly, I wanted to be a lawyer because I could earn lots and lots of money! And give my parents the best things in the world.

But as I grew older, I started to realise that it was not easy to be a lawyer as what you think. So I decided to be a teacher instead. A maths teacher. I love maths, so I wanted to teach all the kids how to love maths a fun way! But for no reason, I didn't take up teaching courses as well. Don't know why either.

When I was taking my O's, I wanted to join the banking area. I wanted to work in a bank, because I can earn big money. Thinking about the past, I used to think a lot about money. Maybe because money can buy me everything? But one thing it cannot buy is love.

After my O level results came out, I couldn't make it to the banking area. I was so sad, so depressed, nearly wanted to just end my life. I studied day and night for my O's, and it turned out like that. My parents told me that, if I were unable to enter banking, why not I try out nursing. So that is why I'm in nursing today. Thanks to my parents, I'm at least in one of a polytechnic today.

I used to think that SP was my home, I love the environment there. I loved all my friends that I met there, I enjoyed the company there, most importantly, SP has moberly that has great memories of us there.

When I entered NYP, I was like " wtf is this school, a crap school. Totally hate it." But everything changed, when I got to know my girlfriends. Life in school turned out to be most interesting as ever. Had great talks with my girls, outings, celebrations, which made us closer than ever.

Most importantly, I met you.

All those memories, will be kept in my heart. Even till the day we leave the school, I don't think I'll ever have the guts to tell you that I think I like you. I don't want to be rejected, I never want to taste rejection, it's not something nice. It feels weird to be rejected. How am I going to face you after that? I don't want our relationship to turn sour after that. You know?

I would rather keep everything into my heart, and just dream of it. Rather than to be unable to even be your friend. That's the worst.

Alright, I think I need to end here, because I've to eat my dinner, send my slides to Hann & study for my theory test. I just hope that Socio slides are in great condition, and we don't have to re-do it! PRAYPRAYPRAY.

imysm as always.

When the going gets tough, the tough gets going.

2011-06-26T23:05:00.002+08:00

Totally how I am feeling right now.

Screwed.

End of my post with a picture of the 3 awesome ladies! Hahaha!

Gotta study for my sbl now, byes.

2011-06-25T22:45:00.001+08:00

I want to go. I want to go. I wish I can go. I really really want to go. But I know I cannot go.

Forget it. Don't want to think about it anymore. Cannot go then don't go. Keep thinking about it won't change the situation anyway.

Change topic.

This afternoon, met Hann,Shirley&Mel at iluma. Actually putting their 3 names together not bad leh, HSM. Hahaha. Okay, wanted to go to SE7EN there for flea, but turned out that it was cancelled. Super disappointing. So we went to Coffee Bean and play Monopoly Deal ! As usual, we always love to play DEAL. We are like the Deal Gang. HAHAHA :) After playing deal for 2 rounds, we went over to Bugis Village to walk and look around. Bid goodbye to Shirley, and Hann, before heading to Scape with Mel. Scape was super hot and stuffy, as always. The weather is even worse. We walked about 1 1/2 hours before heading to 313 to catch our train home. Since Mel was not in a rush, we decided to tour round Forever 21, before making our way home.

Reached home, packed my room, it is clean finally. Everything is in place, and I'm happy about it. hehe. Finally I can study in peace.

SBL on Monday, pray that I won't get selected to perform the procedure. Like super sian okay. But comparing between ETT intubation & ETT suctioning, I would rather do intubation, anyway it is just assisting the Dr. I don't even have to perform it. So much simpler than suctioning. Just hope I won't be paired up with some "boring kid", which totally spoils my mood. Alright, till here.

I'll stop for now. Time to study.

Oh yes, I'm meeting Serene to go to Singapore Flyer for flea tml, excited much! :)

BYE!
xoxo.

Long long long long long post.

2011-06-23T17:18:00.000+08:00

I'm not really interested in blogging nowadays, just reached back. So tired after walking so much, literally physically tired. Bought many many clothes, had super fun time shopping. Super happy, because I can finally enjoy my holidays. Most of the time, my holidays are spent sleeping at home, resting, watching tv or movies. Rarely can spend a good holiday outside, finally I can taste it after 2 years plus. HAPPY! ^^

Had fyp group meeting yesterday, 5 out of 7 turned up, as usual. We discussed about our presentation slides, finalised already. That's great! Happy & excited about it. Because finally we are not so slow. Phew! Gonna meet on friday to get our poster things done up, fast fast best! :)

Might be heading to flea with Shirley&Mel on saturday, hope it'll be confirmed! =) Can't wait to take a look at flea again.

My 3G is finally up, so happy about it. Had been unable to use it for days :( My iPhone was like useless, yup :( Feeling sad about that, but it's okay. I had a great time shopping, hoho! =)

School is starting in approximately 4 days. Feeling excited, but stressed over it as well. Not in the right state of mind. Excited because I'll be able to learn new stuffs, and see my girls. Stressed because there are so many projects, ICAs and exams waiting for me. STRESSED!!!

alright, my cake & milo is ready, time to eat!

BYE, xoxo.

2011-06-15T20:33:00.000+08:00

As the days pass, the love becomes stronger and stronger.

Feel that there's a sense of security whenever I'm next to you.

I'll miss you :(

" When I see your face
There's not a thing that I would change
Cause you're amazing
Just the way you are "

2011-06-12T23:20:00.000+08:00

My one and only love, till eternity. HAHAHA!!! =) I think Taemin's like the only guy that I WANTTTT :(

He's everything! Cute, handsome, charming, pretty, EVERYTHING!!!

I had a great day shopping, didn't get to buy anything, but worth shopping with Serene & sissy.

Tired much.

Off to sleep, goodbyes.

xoxo.

2011-06-10T22:32:00.000+08:00

School has been as stressful as ever, but thanks to holidays starting from tomorrow onwards, i'm officially able to sleep late. hehehe.

Will be meeting my girls tomorrow. Heading to flea, before celebrating ml's birthday @ my place. Excited to the max, because I think it'll be very fun man! =)

Hope that flea will be super fruitful, and can get to buy many many things. HAPPINESS =D

Year 3 has been stressing me too much already. About to breakdown soon. Luckily have my pretty little girls around to brighten up every minute of my life. Phew!

Actually, I'm not sure what to blog. Because I'm like supposed to research up on my sociology & fyp project stuffs. So so so so stressed!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! :(

But I just can't wait for tml's gathering. EXCITING!!!!!!!! :D

2011-06-07T22:14:00.000+08:00

Look back on the memories, how everyone has blossomed.

Cherish this moment with everyone.

Most insulting post ever.

2011-06-07T16:52:00.001+08:00

Firstly, I have to state that this post is very insulting, so if you don't wish to read it, please don't. I don't deserve to get any criticisms okay :)

We always blame ourselves when another person cries, due to whatever you said. But sometimes when the crying gets too over, it becomes rather irritating. I understand why people cry, it's because they are emotional, sad or maybe something triggered the crying effect. But, we should always think, "what's the reason for you crying?" Is it to gain sympathy? Or is it to tell people that you are really traumatized by what they said? I personally feel that it isn't right to cry in front of your friends, because firstly, you show them the weak side of you, secondly, people will think that you are trying to gain sympathy although you are not. That is definitely not what you want people to think of you right? I'm not targeting at any specific groups, but I feel that we are all old enough to control our own emotions. Don't get your emotions over your head, that's not something good.

Another thing is that, I seriously have to vent out is... treating people the way you want people to treat you. If you don't know the situation, don't assume that everything is just one person's fault. It might not necessarily be. Sometimes, it can be the own person's fault, and not the people that usually cause it. When you assume, you will tend to hurt the other party, that will spoil your relationship. So, we should always talk things out face to face, and clarify all misunderstandings. Crying will definitely not help in any way. To me, crying is like getting what you want, but in a not so nice manner.

I used to think that you were much stronger, much more capable of things. But seems like I was wrong. I don't like to cry, therefore, I don't like to see people cry. It isn't something achievable or something that you can be proud of. By destroying relationships just because of something ridiculous, is rather stupid. It's not worth losing friendships like this. Being able to find a friend, is 1 in 1000. We should always cherish each other, and the time we spend together. So that when we look back at those memories, we will always think of those happy moments, and not the sad moments that brought us down.

I hope that you will become stronger and stronger, become bolder and bolder, become more talkative then ever. I hope that all of my wishes will come true, for another 6-8 weeks.

Like or don't like? :( *confusion*
I keep telling myself not to, but somehow my heart still does.
Wth am I thinking, hate this kind of feeling.

2011-06-04T14:41:00.000+08:00

Had group discussion early in the morning, woke up super early. Tomorrow going out, happiness! :) Will be meeting Serene later on, gonna go to the flea market, woohoo! After that, we'll head over to MBS. Yeappie! Excited you know!! :D It's been so long since I went shopping, or maybe should I say, HAVE the mood to even shop! Today's group discussion was a fruitful one, we managed to get our sociology survey questions up, super happy!! But not good, is that muileng cry again :( cheer up la ahma. Bu ke yi always cry, later very hard to find boyfriend ar. hehehe ^_^ Today shopping, tomorrow also shopping. Keep spending money, this is bad la vicki. YOU HAVE TO WAKE UP YOUR IDEA OF SPENDING MONEY!!!!!!!

Actually, I don't have any idea of what to blog today. I just felt like typing something into my blog, hahaha. So retarded.

Oh yes! I came across this retardedly stupid guy that kept smiling to his phone like a super long time, siao sia! O_O

OKAYOKAY, need to go and wash up before heading to meet SERENE.

BYES!

P.S : Yunhann said something that made me very happy. She said that I am matured! HOHO :D

2011-06-03T19:35:00.000+08:00

School has been quite exciting these few days. Were very busy with my presentation firstly, skill test next, and fyp last. Totally don't even have my weekends off okay :( That's how bad it is. Hope to go shopping with my girls soon!! I totally cannot wait, I need clothes, shoes, bags, everything la! Anyway, had fyp meeting on wednesday. & took many crazy webcam shots with fl & mel. And this is the only decent photo that we took, the rest are like super funny & retarded! But I like! ^_^

Just thinking of PRCP, totally freaks me out. Alone in an entire ward, is something not good to imagine. At least should have 2 student nurses in the ward is something better. We wouldn't feel so frightened at least. Only have like a few weeks/months in school, before heading out for attachments. Totally will miss them! :( So, must treasure every single time with them ^_^ Celebrating muileng's 20th birthday on the 11th, excited much! I hope she'll be happy, and cheer up!! Don't always stress la muileng, kan de kai =D

Now, need to find my journal article for the stupid sociology. Totally hate that topic, coz the journal article like so hard to find, cannot even find anything to talk about that. Screwed O_O

Tomorrow got group meeting as usual :( My weekends can just totally flyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy! :(((( *hmph*

I HATE YEAR 3 LIFE, but I cannot wait to graduate and find a Doctor!! :D *YAY* That's the only thing I am looking forward to. hehehe =D

Crush.

2011-05-31T18:12:00.002+08:00

Had nothing to blog about much today, so I decided to check up on the term "crush". So what is a crush? A crush is a word used to describe special feelings you have for another person, a classmate, or friend that you really like.

This is what I found from the website, Noticing your first crush is an exciting time in life because you're beginning to understand how it feels to like another person — a lot!

How cool is that!

But yet, sometimes, feelings for a crush can be confusing, because they are new to you and you don't know how to react. Yups.

Okay, suddenly I have thoughts on what to blog already!

This morning, my lab teacher celebrated shikin's birthday and those birthdays that had already passed. So awesome right! =) And she baked the cake for all of us herself, and she also cooked nasi lemak for all of us! How amazing! No teacher has done that for us all these years. She's so nice, I love her super much!! Snap snap snap photos, all are below :)

As usual, played deal during the 1 hour break, since we had already eaten our lunch. HAPPY!! ^_^

Oh yes, and I must complain about the stupid lecture hall , so smelly. The carpet smells like full of dogs urine, super stinky! Totally cannot tahan the smell ah! >_< BUSOKKKKKS.

Had group discussion at mac, before heading home. So super tired after a long day, tml still have FYP meeting. Everyday is stressful, i'm about to die.

I'm confused, yes or no :(

2011-05-29T11:05:00.000+08:00

Had this super fun time posing for pictures on friday. Had a great time taking photos with my girls, it was an awesome bonding time, haha! Soon gonna head out to meet ohnmar, & then head to orchard for FYP meeting. Life is super not friendly to me nowadays. So many projects ongoing, I've hardly any time to do some shopping on my own :( Totally hate year 3 life. In a few months, we will be leaving school already. Will miss my girls super much! Had this super fun time with them for the past 2 years. =( Can't bear to leave them.. Hais. Okay, I'm rushing for time! Blog later bye.

School is stressful.

2011-05-25T18:58:00.000+08:00

Helloooooo !

Long time never post pictures of myself le ah. All in facebook. Lols. Nowadays getting more and more stressful. Skills assessment is quite near, stressful much! Need to like study very hard for it. Hope I won't fail okay! :( Please pray pray pray for me :D

School today was awesome, because only have 1 hour of lecture. Had FYP group meeting. Funny =D

Tml is a long day, and so is friday. Need lots of rest.

Today got my American Idol. Excited !!

Actually, I don't know what to blog already leh.

Hmmm.

School is stressful loh. LOLS.

Okay, end of here. Still got lots of work to be done.

Sayonara.

Slowly see all my pictures :)